Category: SHORT STORIES

  • Snow Falls In Havana

    The Bamboo beads parted, and the evening sun flooded in behind him, blinding those that looked on. When the beads settled back into place he was already striding toward the bar. Resting upon the counter, he suddenly realized he had gathered quite a lot of attention. Crisp linen suit, recently pressed, with not a crease out of place, he removed his sunglasses and laid them on the counter.  The place was full of old sailors, playing at cards and sipping on the house rum. He pulled a cigarillo from his pocket and slid the ashtray a little closer. As it touched to his lips a hand outstretched with a lighter and he leaned forward lighting the tip. After a moment, he lifted it from his lips and turned to find a woman, cross- legged on a stool, pulling on a cigarette.

    “A bit over dressed for the beach Mr,  maybe you should try a bar downtown, won’t get so much sand in your pretty shoes”

    He tipped some of his ash and took a puff of his cigarillo, as he looked back at her.

    “I quite like the beach actually, and I have had sand in worse places”

    “Well, look around, no one here wears shoes”

    “Yes well, I am a slave to appearances, I must apologize”

    She turned back to the counter, waving down to the bartender, and lifting her glass. Her skin was soft bronze, and it glistened like she had just risen from the water. Deep brown hair sat over her shoulders and covered the fronts of her bikini. Her leg crept from the opening of the scarf she had tied around her waist. She began to run her fingers around the bottom of her glass and touch the liquid to her lips. The bartender came down to end of the counter and wiped the surface before throwing up two rough cuts of fabric in front of them.

    “Lo que quieras?”

    She looked back at the man and then to bartender, before he asked again.

    “Drink, you drink, Cerveza, Rum, que quieras”

    “My friend here will have a drink, yes, my friend, Mr?”

    They turned their attention to him, as he looked at the back bar

    “Please, call me Charles”

    “Charles… Charles… will have… a gin?”

    “I think not miss, gin is the drink of a gentleman, and I have never been so accused”

    “Then something local, Rum”

    “Ah, the drink of the righteous revolutionaries, I am afraid I prefer to follow the rules”

    “You mean to say you’re a bore then?”

    “I prefer life’s little simplicities”

    “Then what can he get you”

    “A scotch on the rocks never goes a miss. However, we’re in Havana and it seems a sin not to try a Daiquiri, so let’s say we break a few rules.”

    He turned his attention back to the bartender who had been cutting fruit and stacking mismatched glasses.

    “Dos Daiquiris Por favor”

    She slid off the chair and brushed past him towards the door.

    “Who said I wanted a drink”

    Beside the door was an old beaten jukebox and she was pressing at the buttons. When she had decided on a song, she reached up above, running her hand along the ledge. Taking down a coin on the end of a string, she dropped it into the machine until it began to whir. Yanking it from the machine as the first few notes of a flamenco guitar swept across the bar. She turned, showing him the coin, dangling it, swinging it side to side, before putting it back upon the ledge. As she made it back to the bar, the bartender was putting the Daiquiris down on the napkins. She took the lime wedge from the side of the glass, squeezing it into the drink, before dropping it inside.

    “I like mine a little more sharp, I like the bite”

    “I prefer mine more blunt, I have a bad history with sharp things”

    “No reason not to try new things, history doesn’t always repeat itself, not without a little encouragement”

    “I can guarantee you, I do not encourage those encounters at all”

    He sipped away at his Daiquiri and undid the single button that kept his jacket closed.

    “You have had me at a severe disadvantage Miss?”

    “Are you so used to having the upper hand?”

    “I have been known to be caught off guard”

    “Maybe you would have been more comfortable downtown in a hotel bar”

    “And deprive myself of your company, I could never dream of it”

    “One man’s dream is another woman’s nightmare…. my name is Lucía”

    “Lucía, a beautiful name, it is my pleasure to share a drink with you”

    “Are you the adventurous type Charles?”

    “From time to time, I end up off the beaten track.

    “Then come, dance with me”

    She removed the scarf from around her waist, using it to tie up her hair. Then she leaned forward stealing his drink and finishing it in one motion. Taking his hand, she led him past the jukebox and into the center of the room, she turned into him and his grip tightened on her wrist. He ran his other hand around her waist, to the small of her back. She broke his grip, freeing her hand running along the back of his neck as their hips ran in opposite directions. They danced like two waves crashing against each other, each time one was leading the other would break the tempo and assume control. The bar around them took no notice to this battle of wills. Card games continued and rum flowed as they swung each other around the floor. Lucía twisted into him and whispered in his ear.

    “Since when are the British working for the Americans”

    Charles took her hip and spun her out before taking her back in close again. He had his hand wrapped around her stomach and was holding her from behind.

    “Around the same time the French came to Cuba”

    She was pulling against him now to escape, so he swung her out one last time, before taking a small step back and curtsying to her. Her eyes were focused on him now, and she felt as if the whole room had suddenly started looking at them. She clapped exaggeratively and ran toward the jukebox. The song changed to a slow soft anthem and voices around the bar began to gently raise in unison. In the middle of all this she slipped out through the beads and into the night.

    Charles walked towards the bar, fixing his jacket closed again, he collected his glasses and dropped some cash on the counter. He slowly walked out through the beads and onto the deck in front of the bar. She was nowhere in sight, so he walked down along the wooden pathway towards the sea. The path was lined with palm trees and it bent and curved. With each step he could hear the crashing waves clearer and clearer. In between the sounds, behind him, footsteps on the wooden beams, the occasional creak, the sound of the sand crunching beneath feet. As both sounds grew closer, he finally came to the clearing of the trees. The moonlight was dancing on the water and the waves moved  with intention towards him. Finally, Lucía stepped from behind a palm tree with a small revolver in her hand, pointed directly at him.

    “Charles Masters, art curator. Since when are MI5 collecting art?

    “Well, the British are well known for collecting art, in fact we’ve always preferred to borrow it rather than create it”

    “What kind of art might you be looking for in Havana, perhaps a mosaic, a sculpture or was it a Russian tapestry?”

    “I usually try to meet the artists before I really decide”

    “I am afraid you won’t be meeting anyone else on this visit Mr Masters”

    “So, I shall have to make do with just you then. Tell me what is a member of the DGSE doing so far away from Paris?

    “You must be mistaken, I am as local as they come, from Cayo Coco”

    “Yes, I must be, of course, from an obscure smaller part of Cuba, an out-of-town girl, surely no one would think any different. Unless, maybe, they wondered why your accent was Catalonian”

    “My grandmother was Catalonian, many Catalonians have settled in Cuba, we have a long history here”

    “What a brilliant cover story, truly stellar, well thought out, well researched, I see why they chose you. So often the best lie is closest to the truth.”

    “Only one of us here is a liar Charles”

    “The Pyrenees, yes, or close enough, deep south, close to the border. You were the smart choice”

    “Enough, start moving, towards that pier”

    She gestured towards a wooden-built pier that stretched out into the water, and they began to walk towards it. The beach was in full darkness apart from the torches that were placed every few hundred metres. The pier had some flickering candles in boxes all along it and was well lit. After walking for a bit Charles suddenly stopped and bent down.

    “Keep it moving, I am not joking around here”

    “Well, as you noted earlier, the beach is no place for shoes, kindly wait a moment”

    He slowly unlaced his shoes and removed his socks, tucking them inside. Then he softly stood up, fixing his jacket and wiping off the sand from his hands and sleeves. They walked a little longer before Charles swung around to face her.

    “Are we going swimming, or is there a boat, cause I will need to remove a few more items if we are going into the water you see”

    “You will be going right here in the sand if you don’t turn back around and keep walking”

    “I thought we had a lovely evening together, don’t you want to get to know each other a little more”

    “I want you to turn around and get moving before I have to use this”

    “So be it, but I offered”

    He slowly turned before swinging back toward her with his shoes, knocking the revolver from her hand. Then he put his foot behind hers and tripped her to the sand, pressing on top of her and pinning her hands above her head. She wrestled with him, but he pressed down and eventually she gave up and let out a sigh.

    “Now, let’s talk about the truth, why don’t you tell me what’s at the end of that pier.”

    “Why don’t you get off of me first.”

    “That’s not exactly an answer now, is it.”

    “There’s a boat, that you should take and get out of here, before you do any more damage.”

    “But my dear, I am just here to collect some local art, what harm could I cause”

    “You have the subtleties of a Bull in a China Shop, walking into that bar in that suit, insulting the locals”

    “I thought I was quite pleasant to them”

    “You nearly blew my cover, I have been working that bar since 61’ and you arrive in and immediately draw attention to me, and nearly out me!”

    “You draw attention to yourself, you lit my flame, if you remember.”

    “It takes two to tango.”

    “That was your idea too.”

    “Let me up.”

    He loosened his grip and hesitantly leaned back, lifting his leg up and allowing her to roll from underneath him. He felt for the revolver and found it, quickly tucking it away while she got to her feet. Then he pretended to fish around for his shoes.

    “You have lost my revolver, it’s not as easy to get one of those around here.”

    “What about my loafers, they’re Italian, can’t get them here either.”

    Charles found his shoes by the brush and took them up, tying the laces together and putting them around his neck. Lucía was retying the scarf around her waist before cupping some water in her hands and using it to rub the sand from her skin. He approached the water himself and let it run over his feet as he sunk into the sand.

    “There is no reason we can’t work together”

    “Together? Together? I’m not even sure we want the same thing”

    “Cards on the Table?”

    “You first, then I’ll see”

    “Another disadvantage, you favor the strong position. Well, it is funny, it just so happens, I am here to locate a boat. Not quite the boat you had in mind but perhaps you know it. A ship called the Dubno, it was an escort ship allowed to cross the blockade. At first it was deemed safe. However, intelligence suggests that it will be dismantled and used to further the nuclear infrastructure being built within the jungles. The crew manifest was secured by operatives within the Kremlin and contained some of the current best Russian minds on nuclear warfare.

    “So, what do you want with the Dubno, the British have no involvement here”

    “Well, I hate to be ever so obvious but nor do the French, and yet here we are rolling in the sand”

    “Well, you might remember we had some vested interests in these parts of the world, at one time or another. It was decided we would monitor the escalation closely after the last government was overthrown. So, I arrived over a year ago and began to embed myself with the local revolutionaries”

    “Did you find anything of interest in these beds, or just the warmth?”

    “Ever so charming Mr Masters, and why should I share any of my information with you?

    “If you had not already realized, we are mere days from a moment that may change the world forever, and I don’t know about you, but I quite like it how it is now, all in one piece.”

    “Then perhaps we will have to do something about it all, follow me then, I have someone you should meet”

    “I hope it is not the captain of that ship you were talking about”

    They set off toward the pier, cautiously holding a distance between each other. By now the moon shone like a spotlight across the water, lighting the way forward. As they grew closer Charles could make out the wooden pier a bit more. It stretched out from the sand as if it was an extension of the land itself. The candlelight revealed all the many holes in the wood that made up this rotting landmark. Near its end he finally spotted, on the other side, a small boat.

    Charles allowed Lucía to lead, while he followed, a half step behind. He noted the many breaks in the bush, the huts further along the beach, city lights in the distance. All of this was important, for whatever or whoever was at the end of this pier, he must be ready to disappear if the situation called for it. As they reached the start of the pier, they proceeded single file along it, Charles trying to look over Lucías shoulder at the boat ahead. A figure emerged in the darkness, smoke billowing from a cigar they lifted to and from their mouth. He could not make who it was, still uneasy, he felt for the revolver, confirming its position and left his jacket loose, just in case.

    The low hum of someone singing a song broke the silence as they approached

    ‘Get me a girl who can dance the ‘dango – Round as a melon, sweet as mango’

    They were crouched down messing at the ropes and gently swaying as they worked. Suddenly the ropes swung up high and onto the deck on this little tugboat. Rising into the light of the moon a towering commanding  figure filled the space at the end of the pier.

    “Who goes there in the dark, could it be my sweet mango woman”

    “Were you expecting anyone else this evening my dear, of course it is me”

    “You’re the only woman for me Lucía, I wait for no one but you.”

    Charles was following in Lucías shadow until he stepped slightly to the left to make out this man in the darkness.

    “You told me there may be a prisoner this evening, this man follows like a passenger”

    He stepped from behind her now, revealing himself.

    “Well, the lady insisted I come against my will, but I was far too intrigued to resist”

    “She has always been impossible to resist, Mr Masters”

    “Oh, another who knows my name, am I on a poster somewhere, I am beginning to feel famous”

    “Infamous, you mean, another British gentleman who makes a scene and claims to be the extra, not the leading man”

    “You must have me wrong sir, Shakespeare in the park when I was in Kings but since then I am more the weary travelled salesman than anything else.

    “I would believe Europe had fallen to the fascists sooner than any word that slips from your tongue.”

    Lucía threw her head back smirking at Charles and  stepped forward onto the boat.

    “Come Miguel, let’s take this to the sea and let the waves carry our conversations away”

    Miguel laughed and took the last of the ropes in his hand, throwing them aboard. He leaned on the edge of the boat and motioned to Charles to enter first. The boards creaked as he stepped onto the deck, Miguel shoving him forward and turning to pull the plank in. It was a simple little tugboat, poorly painted and poorly maintained, it was long past its maiden voyage. In the corner a pile of nets, dried, chords parting and loose, seemed as if they had been long from the water. Lucía motioned to join her in the main cabin, Charles followed cautiously. They passed the door to the helm where Miguel was entering from the opposite side, it was more like a sitting room than anything else. A large armchair sat in front of the steering wheel, complete with a side table, a non-descript bottle, half full and condensating, beside an empty glass. All along the window to the front there was little ornaments and trinkets, of all colors, shapes and sizes. Charles had lingered too long, and Miguel spotted him, so he lurched forward and slammed the side door, a wooden frame and thick red curtains greeting him.

    Charles continued down the side of the boat to reach the cabin where he found Lucía lighting a wood stove. It was a small space with a table in the center and a bed to the right as he entered. He strode across the room and pulled a wicker chair from beneath the tabletop and sat facing the door.

    Lucía pulled two glasses from the shelf, took a bottle from the sink and began to pour two large measures for herself and Charles.

    “This will have to do for you, I think it’s Gin, Miguel makes it himself, prefers it to anything from the sugarcanes, too sweet for him.”

    “We like what we like, a Cuban Gin is a first for me, but as you know, I’m the adventurous type.”

    Charles swirled the liquid in the glass then took a sip, letting it fill his cheeks before swallowing it.

    “Not much for flavour either, your Miguel. Tastes as though it only saw the junipers in the window”

    “Maybe he’s after something else when he drinks, we don’t all have the privilege of choice Charles.”

    “No, but I would rather no choice than to choose a bland flavorless life.”

    “What is it you hope to achieve here in Havana, are you to speak for the people or the dictators”

    “Well – I don’t speak for the people, and I only see one dictatorship, cleverly disguising itself as a fair and equal place. Then again, those I intend to represent say they are ‘for the people’ and yet so recklessly play with the weapons of war. So, I am for neither of those, I am simply here for humanity, and not to be dramatic but perhaps the very fate of the world”

    “Not dramatic at all” Lucía says as she swallows her drink and pours another

    “Not since the end of the last war, have we come so close to a world ending event. Two superpowers hurl insults and put on displays of bravado and showmanship. In reality, we are one ego maniac from a nuclear fallout that could bring the human race back to the beginnings of evolution.”

    “So, your plan is to reason to their humanity, because I fear we are past talking our way out of this one”

    “There is no harm in a little mediation, sometimes it’s just about finding the right words.”

    “You must be mad, there are no words, they are replaced with hate, with competition, with an us and them mentality that was forged in fire and tempered by the cold”

    “So, what is it that keeps you here, the weather sure is fine, and the beer is cold, but I don’t wish to think you remain without a plan”

    “Well, before your abrupt entrance we had began to plan a little warfare of our own. We know they are building something down by San Cristobal. Villages surrounding that area have slowly started to empty, the people are either moving to Havana or missing. So, me and Miguel started there. Between his fishing trips he has taken me down the coast and we have gone ashore. From Bahia Honda we travelled across the mountains and found their base. It was there that I set my eyes upon your prize, the Dubno, sitting in a lake on the edge of town, they must have taken it up the rivers and somehow got it over land.”

    “I may have underestimated your tenacity, it seems you are quite the driven individual, but what can we three do against a base full of militia and missiles.”

    “On the hills above San Cristobal there is a power station, scarcely guarded. If we could somehow sabotage it, there would be no way to launch any missiles from the base, it would buy us just the time we need to end this madness.”

    “You would use bombs to stop missiles, what happened to stern words. If you could get me into this town, I could perhaps speak sense to the senseless.”

    “You would sooner find your grave than your answers if you dared to go near that base, it would be a one-way ticket”

    “I always book one way, I don’t like to restrict my travel plans with a return date”

    Miguel entered the cabin, sitting down on the chair opposite Charles, he pulled a cigar from his pocket and a snips, taking the tip off the top, then striking a large match to light it. There was a dirty glass on the table, he lifted it up and ran his finger inside, turning it upside down and shaking it, then leaning backwards he grabbed the bottle from the sink and poured himself a large drink. Raising his glass in the air he motioned towards them.

    “To good company and bad times”

    He swallowed the drink whole and immediately refilled his glass before adjusting in his chair and leaning forward.

    “So Mr Masters who is it you are really working for”

    “Well as I was telling Lucía, it seems I am just a man of the people “

    “Are those people painted with the famous stars and stripes, land of the oppressed and home of the cowards”

    “I am unsure of your meaning, but I suppose you could say English wasn’t their first language but it certainly stuck.”

    “Never a straight answer from you is there Charles, what’s the plan, a few nice words and a cup of tea, the soviets prefer their drinks cold.”

    “ I had not thought to bring my tea set, it might have helped. No Miguel, I simply plan on having a rational conversation with our Eastern brothers and hoping that we can come to some agreement. If you will kindly drop me off in San Cristobal along your way, it would be of great help”

    “We are going nowhere near San Cristobal, we are going as far as the hills on a recon only trip”

    Lucía perked up from warming her hands by the stove and interrupted.

    “Miguel, we cannot wait any longer, it must be tomorrow”

    “Impossible Lucía, I have told you it is unsafe, we haven’t got the materials or the plans”

    “We can get some explosives from the rebels, we know they are in the bay, and they like the Russians far less than we do, they might even join us”

    “The REBELS! They are unorganized and immoral, they would see Cuba returned to the days of Columbus”

    “If we do not strike now, it may be too late, the embargo has only gotten more tense in the last days, we have to pour some water on the fire.”

    “I won’t do it Lucía, it is a fool’s mission, send the Englishman to his death, but I will not join him.”

    Miguel stood up, swallowed his drink and left the cabin for the helm, slamming the door behind him. Charles raised an eyebrow and shuffled in his chair, crossing his legs and looking towards Lucía. She crossed the room and sat on the edge of the bed, holding her hands to her face then running them through her hair. Suddenly she caught his gaze and sat up straight.

    “Have you got something to add, because I have had it with men of inaction this evening.”

    “I mean no undue stress my dear, I do not. My mission is not yours, but I do have some observations. Firstly, your man is right, you don’t know the movements around this power station, and you don’t well know that the rebels haven’t been bought out already. There are not many warzones I have seen where the local rebels hold their morals higher than the money they stand to gain. Secondly, are you familiar with a Matryoshka?”

    “It is worth a shot, at the very least, we cannot sit by and do nothing and…. a what?”

    “A Matryoshka. You see I spent winter in St Petersburg one year, a fantastic city, as beautiful and ornate as it is cold. It happened that I was there during a great market fair and they had stalls and stalls of local artisans, bakers and performers. There was Honey Cakes, Cinnamon Buns, and these little rolled pastries called Rogaliki. I stopped to see a performance of the Kamrinskaya, a bold and energetic display, it was truly fascinating to watch in the center of the square…”

    “Charles, please there are…”

    “Afterwards! I continued to the stalls, watching painters and sculptures create little works of art in front of my very eyes. One piece in particular was more intriguing than the rest for it was more than just one piece it was many pieces that make just one. It is called a Matryoshka, you may know it as a Russian Doll. They begin by making either a very large or very small ornate wooden shaped doll, then they make others and each one smaller or bigger than the next until the whole set fits inside of itself. Have you seen one before?”

    “I am glad you had a nice time in Russia Charles but now is really not the time for culture lessons”

    “Cause if you have not, I have seen one, this very night, in the helm with Captain Miguel. Strange he would have this among his many ornaments, with flamenco dancers and what looked to be a wooden carving of a guitar. How did Captain Miguel find a Matryoshka in Havana.”

    “You would prefer to discuss Miguels trinkets and toys than a plan to stop what you basically described as the end of the world”

    “No, no, we are discussing the same thing. My focus is on trust, you see, this boat is rusting, the nets are dry, the controls are not operational, it merely sails on the water. I doubt it has seen a fishing trip in a very long time. So how is it you came to meet our charismatic captain.”

    “Miguel is from Bahia Honda himself, he has sailed back and forth between there and Havana long before the Russians ever got here. We met at the port in Havana, where he was selling his freshly caught fish. I asked him for passage to Bahia many months ago and we agreed to a regular voyage. We are after the same thing, he speaks often of his disgust for the soviets and his love for Cuba.”

    “Yet, there is no sign of Cuba on this ship, and a Cuban who dislikes Rum, it is unheard of. This liquid we are drinking is unmistakably Vodka, it is no closer to Gin than Whiskey is. Our Captain enjoys his as cold as possible and in the form of shots, he does not sip like a gentleman or let it linger, he drinks for strength, courage, warmth, might. Much like my companions on that lovely trip to St Petersburg. Who calls the Commis, Soviets, not any Cuban I have spoken to. If your network is as strong as mine, you surely will know that the Russians are using red symbols on ships to identify each other, much like those striking curtains next door.”

    “Charles, you are simply insufferable, you turn up, nearly blow my cover, come along for the ride, shoot down our plans and insist you can fight bullets with words. Then, you come up with these wild theories about someone I have known and trusted for many months. Tomorrow, we will leave you at the port and you can hike to San Cristobal. By the time you arrive we will have cut their power, and they will be glad of your company.”

    “Lucía, I ask you to see sense, he has no intention of ever seeing this plan through, how many times have you taken this trip and taken no action”

    “It is called caution, you might remember suggesting it yourself earlier”

    “Caution can so easily be distraction or misdirection, I only ask you for an open mind”

    “Get some sleep Charles, we won’t reach the bay until the morning, then we can go our separate ways”

    Lucía lay down and pulled the blankets over her, turning towards the wall. Charles let out a breath and looked down into his glass, swirling his drink and taking in its aroma. He turned his head to look out the window at Havana disappearing in the distance, he wouldn’t sleep a minute, not tonight.

    The boat was gently bobbing on the waves as the sun shone through the window. Lucía woke to a familiar smell filling the cabin, arabica. Turning over she saw Charles there, gently pouring into two cups, steam streaming off the flow of liquid and its very sight awoke her senses. She rose from the bed and pulled a shirt from the hook, it was oversized and heavy, she pulled it around her like a hug. On the table there was pack of cigarillos, she pulled one out and reached for the lighter. This caught Charles’ attention, he walked over and placed a cup of fresh coffee before her, then pulled a chair out and sat down. He reached across to take his own cigarillo and then took his lighter from his breast pocket. The first pull of that cigarette was full of angst, stress, contempt, frustration and then like valve, release. Smoke filled the air, battling for the same attention that the coffee had received. Both of their shoulders loosened, and they relaxed back in their chairs.

    Charles took a sip of his coffee and let out a sigh.

    “Must feel like home, I can’t imagine a more French start to the day than coffee and cigarettes”

    “A Croissant would be nice, or a buttered baguette maybe, but we will have to wait for port if we want breakfast”

    “Will we land soon, it seems our captain locked himself in the cabin some hours ago and we have been bobbing ever since.”

    “You don’t expect him to work through the night, he must rest too, he will rise soon and you better hope there’s some of this left because he is not fond of the dawn”

    “There is a cup or two left, I made plenty, we will need it, if we are going to make this trek”

    “Excuse me? What trek is that I thought we were going our separate ways. You were going to speak sense in San Cristobal”

    “My plans have not changed but my itinerary can allow for a detour, I will accompany you to this power station and see it for myself. It would do me no good to go into town speaking of peace at the same time you declare war”

    “Who said you were welcome on our mission, you made some strong statements last night, it is hard to look past your feelings about my companion”

    “My dear, we have only just met, you have yet to realize that my adventurous spirit is only outweighed by my vivid imagination. It has as often got me in trouble as it has gotten me out of it. Our Captain need not know of my ramblings, and we can proceed with your mission”

    “So, I am just to forget all this talk of Russia and your paranoia”

    “If you can’t get it off your mind, put it to the back and let us focus on the task at hand. Where will we find these rebels when we get to the port”

    “They will find us, they always do, they run the ports, and they always see to their fee”

    “They say a revolution is a nasty business but a business all the same”

    The coastline began to look like a moving picture exiting stage left, and they knew they were moving again. There were muffled sounds of a radio coming from the helm and Charles listened intently as he sipped his coffee. He could not hear much more than Miguels deep baritone voice speaking some dialect of Spanish. The helm door opened first, and then heavy footsteps came along the deck, the cabin door opened and the sight of a weary-eyed captain appeared. As he entered Lucía stood up pouring an extra cup and moving to the next seat over. He sat down at the table and took his cigar from the ashtray, and with the strike of a match lit it once again. They sat in silence, smoke and coffee leaving the room to let the fresh sea air in, bringing a cool breeze and a sense of calm to them all.

    “Miguel, Charles will come with us to the power station, first we need to meet the rebels, can you speak to Gonzales”

    “Oh, my sweet mango woman, you’re going to break my heart. We cannot go ahead with this plan, it’s far too dangerous, and I can’t let you do it”

    “I know you’re scared, I know it’s crazy and we might fail but I didn’t sign up for this mission just to let two men on opposite sides of the world blow us all to hell. If we fight, we may die but if we just lie down, we may as well be dead”

    “So be it, when we land, I will find Gonzales and see what he has to say. We only hope that these rebels have not been corrupted, I fear they’re only loyal to the highest bidder”

    Charles let out a little laugh underneath his breath and caught a glaring look from Lucía

    “A sentiment I share with you Mon Capitan”

    He rose up from the seat and tipped his cigarillo before taking his coffee out onto the deck to watch the coast close in.

    “How can you trust this Englishman so soon Lucía”

    “I do not, not completely, but if we are to do this, it simply cannot be just us”

    “What if I can get Gonzales to get us some men, maybe even some from San Cristobal, that know the terrain”

    “You say you don’t trust the rebellion, and you want to let them in on all our plans. We know the terrain, we have seen the station, we just have to get in quietly, unnoticed, and take it out of action. We can only hope they are not guarding it when we arrive.

    “We will travel at nightfall, we will arrive  at break of day tomorrow, before anyone is stirring from their beds and catch them off guard”

    “Let’s just hope we still have enough time”

    Miguel returned to the helm and Lucía joined Charles out on deck to watch as they entered the port of Bahia Honda.

    Charles had asked Miguel to borrow some clothes and ended up finding an old check shirt and some dark combats trousers in the cabin. He washed himself from the sink and changed into his fresh clothes, tucking his shirt and popping two buttons at the top, then he put his sunglasses on and went on deck. The port was small, but the bay curved, from point to point it was 180 degrees and in the center reaching out towards the sea, a long wide pier. All along was cut out notches for different sized ships, each one larger as they neared the shore. Miguel brought the ship to the middle of the pier and threw his rope out to a waiting port attendant. Then he stood upon the boat’s ledge and leaped onto the pier. They pulled and tugged the ropes until the boat was in line and then Miguel tied it off before giving the attendant a firm handshake and big embrace.

    “Come Charles, come Lucía, meet my friend Jorge”

    Charles stepped off the edge and turned back, outstretching his hand to help Lucía down from the boat. She was wearing shorts now, and a utility vest, a belt around her waist with different pockets, and a holster attachment. She stepped forward and shook Jorges’s hand, and Charles did too, but stood back behind Lucía then. Miguel had stepped back on the boat to get their bags, and they came suddenly thudding down in front of them.

    “My friends, we are going to go and speak to Gonzales, we will see if he is sympathetic to our cause, it is better we go alone”

    “Let me speak to Gonzales, I have been meeting with his type for more than year now in those dusty saloons in Havana”

    “He is no simple rebel my dear, he is the toughest and most reclusive in all of Cuba. Jorge here has been trying to get an audience with him for many months, only this morning did he agree when he heard of our mission over the radio”

    Charles suddenly stepped forward

    “You have been sharing our plans along the radio waves, don’t you know my man that they could be listening to every word”

    “You think everyone a fool around you, we speak in a sailors code, there is no interceptence, because what we say means nothing and raises no interest.”

    “I do not think anyone a fool, in fact I consider the fool a most serious foe, especially when he is merely masquerading”

    “You would speak of disguises, I am not sure even YOU remember who you are”

    “I remember more than you know Captain”

    Lucía pulled on Charles shirt and broke into the conversation

    “Go then, speak to your rebels, and meet us by the top of the pier at nightfall, we must leave if we are to reach the San Cristobal Hills by daybreak”

    Miguel and Jorge loaded the bags and themselves into a jeep and drove off up the pier. Charles and Lucía start to walk from the boat towards the shops and cafes. They passed fishermen and workers, loading cargo or sorting their catches from the morning. The sea air was still on the breeze and afternoon sun was breaking through the clouds and lighting up the town. They walked around the market and shopped for things they may need on their mission. To seem inconspicuous, they spoke of nature walks and hunt for birds in the forests, and on the sea. This made all the items they were purchasing seem insignificant. When they spoke to the merchants they acted as if they had not been to the area and that Charles was discovering Cuba, he took on a new role now as a nature journalist. Lucía was surprised that he could speak so well on the subject of wildlife and the natives’ birds and animals of Cuba. She was laughing and making fun of him as he explained the different calls of the wild. Yet Charles had never studied wildlife or bird calls, what he had studied was Cuba, its terrain, native species, culture, history and anything he could before he left for his mission.

    Charles considered no piece of information insignificant, he had been taking everything in since he had walked into that bar the day before. Lucía and Miguel seemed the perfect companions, just the people to get him to where he needed to go and complete his mission. Still, Charles had one thing he valued above all else and it was intuition, he could not fully trust his new party, there were motives that remained unclear and information he hadn’t been able to get, so he planned his own contingencies. When Lucía went to find a bathroom in a café Charles made his way back to the stalls. First, he visited a leather maker and enquired after a shoulder strapped gun holster, he seen hanging in the back, then he moved down towards a stall selling jackets. He purchased a military style jacket in dark colours and put it on over his holster, then he bent down to tie his laces and retrieved Lucía’s gun from his boot. When he stood up, he tucked it away on his left side beneath his jacket. Lucía suddenly tapped him on the shoulder, and he tensed up slightly and turned to her.

    “Did you intend to leave me Mr Masters”

    “I did tell you I was a salve to appearances, I felt a little under dressed”

    “It suits you, come on, let’s go, we have to be at the port”

    “Oh, didn’t you want to walk along the beach for old times’ sake”

    “Give it up Charles”

    They took a side street out of the back of the market and headed down towards the cafés by the pier. Sunset came shortly after they had arrived at the agreed place, they took a seat and ordered two beers, then they studied maps and kept their cover up. They still looked at the area they would be going to and Lucia told Charles of all the security fences, military presence and surveillance she had seen in previous visits. She was sure if they arrived early in the morning that the patrols would not be out to the area yet and they could get in and out. After dark they seen the lights of the jeep coming down the road and it pulled up right along where they were seated.

    Miguel stepped out and pulled some money from his pockets, throwing it on the table

    “Get in, now”

    They grabbed their backpacks and jumped into the back of the jeep, and it took off towards the edge of town. Charles was behind Miguel and Jorge was driving, he was taking his time to get a sense of the energy in the car, it seemed tense. Lucía was telling them what supplies they had got in the market and where they had marked on the maps. They were reaching the countryside when the last of the lamplights were flooding in and Charles noticed Jorges hands, bloodied and bruised, but they had not been like that at the port earlier that day.

    “Well Gents, how was our mysterious rebel, will he be meeting us in San Cristobal”

    Miguel reached up and adjusted the rearview mirror to see Charles from the passenger seat.

    “They won’t be making it on this mission. We could not agree on a solution to our problems. Gonzales gave us some explosives and wished us luck but don’t count on the rebels, it’s just us now”

    “Lucky, we had other plans then”

    The journey from Bahia Honda took them up through country roads, slowly inclining into mountainous areas. They drove for hours but stopped a few times to stretch their legs and use the bathroom. Lucía slept on Charles lap for periods of time, but he could not relax. There was little to no light in the jeep but from time to time he would look  through the front window and swore Miguels eyes were still watching him in the rearview. Their two companions barely spoke and although during their roadside stops Charles tried to chat to Jorge, he could get not much more than a few words. So, he sat running the events of the past days in his mind and thinking about what he read of Cuba and how true it had really all been.

    They arrived at the opening of a forest area just as early light began in the sky. They would have to get out, walk through this forest area and then cut across a field and into a river. Then they could come up behind the station and not run into any patrols. The equipment was spread out between them all and Lucía agreed to take the explosives and stay at the back of the group. When they were just a few metres into the walk Jorge suddenly realized he had forgotten extra charge wires and said he must go back to the truck. So, they waited in the clearing and discussed the power station. Miguel had discovered that when they entered through the fence there would be two buildings, one was a maintenance storage and the other housed the main generators, they needed to go to the left building. Charles was tightening the chords on his bag when he heard a radio static and hushed the other two.

    “Did you hear that, there was a radio just there, get down, get down”

    Lucía moved but Miguel did not and he stepped toward Charles

    “Hold your cool English, that was nothing, it is just us up here”

    “I heard it from that direction, maybe we should check on…”

    Jorge burst through the brush at that moment and Charles took a step back and held up his hands.

    “See English, not every sound is the enemy, let’s get moving, let’s get moving”

    Charles asked Jorge if he had heard anything, but he said he had just been to the car and back and there was nothing out here except for them. They moved in single file through the tree line to the edge of the forest. When they reached the field, they hunched and moved slow and low across it, to the edge of the river. Further up the bank there were stones leading to the other side, so they moved down until it was safe to cross and made it over to the power station fence. Miguel stepped up and used a cutters to make a hole in the fence, they came in one by one and then huddled together. There was no sign of anyone, and the main gates seemed to be still locked. Miguel put his finger to his lips and pointed to the building on the left, it seemed much smaller than the maintenance store, but he pointed to himself and then them and then gestured that way. They moved across the yard and when they reached the door Miguel used a crowbar to pry it open. Charles entered first then Miguel, Lucía and Jorge.

    When Charles got inside, he searched the wall for the light and when he turned it on, he realized they were inside the maintenance stores. There were two chairs in the center of the room and what looked like dry blood on the floor. When Lucía realized she start to ask Miguel what this was and then Jorge pushed her towards the center from behind and pulled a gun from his hip, pointing it at them. Lucía fell to the ground and stumbled up towards Charles, into his arms.

    Miguel put his bag on a long table and opened it, taking a small rolled up kit out of it and dropping it on the table. It rolled loose and revealed a number of small medical tools.

    “Now I think it is time we had a little chat, and really got to know each other”

    Lucía shook and wrestled out of Charles grip, lurching forward towards Miguel

    “What are you doing, what is this Miguel, what are you doing!”

    “Calm down my darling, calm, calm, we have plenty of time, plenty”

    “For what Miguel, are you handing us over to the Russians, are you working for them, are you”

    “Take a seat, we will explain it all, just sit down”

    “You’re going to have to make me! Make me!”

    Miguel was calm and he gently stepped toward her and struck her with such force she hit the ground and her nose started to bleed. Charles jumped forward but halted when Jorge pointed the gun in his direction. Miguel took Lucía by her hair and dragged her toward the chairs in the center, she screamed and screamed but he lifted her from the ground and crashed her into the chair. Charles stood still helpless to the situation as Miguel tied her hands to the chair.

    “Now Mr Masters, don’t make me hurt your pretty face too, take a seat”

    “I don’t think ill be doing that Captain, you’re going to have to make me as well”

    “Oh, I thought you would never ask”

    Miguel went back to the table and pulled a large blade from the sleeve. As he moved towards him, Charles began to circle left until Miguel was between him and Jorge. When Miguels got closer, Charles pulled his gun, he was startled by its sudden appearance. Charles lunged at Miguel, slapping him with the gun and sending him to the floor, then he let off one shot and sent Jorge flying backwards into barrels by the door. He walked towards Jorge gun still drawn and kicked at his feet; he was dead. Charles ran back over to Lucía and began to undo her ties.

    “Charles what is going on, is he dead Charles, is he dead”

    “Hush now, we need to move”

    Charles grabbed Lucías bag and handed it to her and they headed towards the door. Miguel suddenly grabbed Charles’ leg and dragged him to ground in one pull. He screamed out to Lucía

    “Keep going, plant the explosives, go, go!”

    Lucía hesitated but ran towards the door, swinging it open. Miguel was on him now, blood dripping onto Charles face as Miguel rained down fists. Charles put his forearms up to defend the fists, but Miguel began to hit his body until he could not breathe, he turned to his side and tried to wriggle free. The gun was beneath the chair, just inches from him and he was reaching for it with all his might. He could not reach it, so he swung back and planted his elbow into Miguel, sending him back. Then from outside, the sound of the gates bursting open and the doorway was filled with light. Charles pushed himself from the ground and heard screams, but as he sprung forward to get up Miguel met him with a clean shot and sent him backward, unconscious.

    Charles woke to the sound of Russian, he knew some conversational pieces, and he could tell that they were speaking about him and Lucía. Their hands were tied together and crossed over left to right, right to left. They were locked in an X shape on the chairs, he could barely move his hands and even if he could what hope would there be, given how entangled they were. He looked around to see the room and by the table was Miguel and another man in Military uniform. Charles could tell exactly who it was from his badges, just who he expected had been on the Dubno all along.

    “Zdravstvuyte…. komandir Brezhnev.”

    The two men turned and the man in military uniform made an exaggerated clapping motion and walked towards Charles. He put his hands on both Charles’ cheeks and shook his head

    “Mr Charles Masters, what a pleasure! what a pleasure! Art Dealer, Car Salesman, Nature Journalist, and even diplomatic envoy to France was it, maybe it was Spain. It got you into St Petersburg none the less, wow, this is a treat”

    “What brings you to this sunny climate Komandir, and where are your swim shorts”

    “Yes, yes Mr Masters, please make your fun, it won’t be a moment before Mikhail is ready”

    Over on the table Miguel was preparing his tools and was running a blade over a low flame, it blackened and began to look orange in the light

    “You do know Mikhail don’t you Mr Masters. Captain you were calling him I believe, well yes, it is close enough, and he will be more than this when we return to Moscow. He is truly spectacular, a chameleon of sorts, we sent him out here almost a decade ago to set up our operation. You know all about the operation, I know this, you said so to dear Lucía here, or should we say Marie, no let’s not ruin that surprise just yet. Mikhail has been so good, he practically emptied the town of San Cristobal himself. With a little help from Georgiy, our fallen comrade. Yes, Mr Masters, we will rise from the ashes of this town and be crowned kings in our homeland, and Georgiy will be among the remembered.”

    “It comes as no surprise to me Brezhnev, trust a Russian to play with dolls and hang red everywhere, there’s more than two colours you know, you might try mix it up.”

    “Still, you are tied to the chair and we stand here victorious, so who should really be giving the advice. I must thank you both, we have had a little thorn in our side for some time with these rebels, you think it was dear Lucía, but she was more the puppet. No, no, these rebels really had us beat, stopping shipments, delaying our build, and they even tried to sink the Dubno. What could we do, what could we do… until… two spies walk into a bar in Havana and word makes it to Gonzales. Well, he was more than delighted to have a meeting with these spies, so he came out of hiding. When Mikhail and Georgiy arrived to represent you, things turned a little violent. Don’t worry Charles, we left your business card behind.”

    “What use would it be now, I assume you are planning to torture us and then end the world, very original of you, very”

    “We are just looking for answers Charles, just answers. We didn’t provoke anyone, The Americans came to us, moved into our back gardens and now they cry when we visit our friends here for a holiday. Throw stones and get bullets we say, it’s the only way to learn.”

    “Well, you may let us go, neither of us pledged allegiance to a flag, we are practically tourists, just like you, why don’t we go have a Daiquiri and we can laugh it off”

    “No, I don’t think we can laugh, I think its time for tears. Mikhail, wake her up”

    Mikhail walked over from the table and put the burning blade to the back of Lucías arm. She screamed and began to thrash around pulling at the restraints and shaking the two chairs. Mikhail sprayed water on her arm and she screamed even more. There was a smell of burning in the air and she writhed in agony.

    “How could you MIGUEL, how could you!”

    “Hush princess, hush, it will get worse”

    Brezhnev clapped in glee as he watched Lucía crying, screaming  and throwing insults

    “Now Charles, focus, I want information and every time you do not tell me something, we make a little more barbeque of our sweet girl here”

    “Just ask Brezhnev, just ask, what use are lies, what use is secrecy.”

    “You ask the use, well the thrill, of the hunt, of feeling hunted, the rush of nearly being caught, of wearing the identity of someone else, but you know this, Charles. Do not speak to me as if I have heard nothing of the lives you have destroyed. It takes more courage to do it openly than under the cover of darkness.”

    “Openly, yes, openly talking of the end of days, do you realize there will be nowhere to go. The nuclear fallout from the mutual destruction you face will wipe all life off earth. Maybe not to begin with, maybe not but eventually. The nuclear winter is real and if you do not convince Khrushchev to back down, it will be upon the world and the blood on your hands wont matter in the flames.”

    “Chills, I have chills, you paint a vision of a world you will not live to see, for you die here Mr Masters, once you tell me, where is the silo in Italy. We know the Americans have been building too, but we need the region, and I do not think that the British were not told. Let us end it easy, a location for a bullet, otherwise I am afraid we will be here all night”

    “Let her go, let her run, then I will tell you, she knows nothing, she is but a pawn in a war that never really started”

    “After all this time I am afraid what she might do to Mikhails reputation with her stories”

    “You’re a coward Brezhnev, you would let Kruschev lead you all blindly into this destruction, where is your duty and honor to your country.”

    “DON’T! Question my honor, I was a Komandir in the Red Army when Germany came to take our homeland. I drove them out through the snow back where they came from. Then what does my dear departed leader do but call Khrushchev back from torturing people, to heel like a dog at his side. I have watched as he chases these Americans to space, builds his silos and his bombs and wages war on the world. My country starves, the people are born and bred for war, we have lost our might, we have lost our way.”

    “Then let me help you find it Brezhnev, I can speak to the Americans, we can sue for peace, you can show your people there is a better way, a brighter way”

    “Peace will not be in our time Charles, maybe in the next life”

    Brezhnev turned and gestured to Mikhail.

    “Soften him up”

    Mikhail took a large sock from his bag and dropped two small weights into it, he walked over to Charles and began swinging it into his ribs and then to his face. His cheek was cut open, and one of his teeth came loose, he could feel it wiggle in his mouth. Each time Mikhail would be ready to swing, Charles would tense and brace. Lucía continued to scream and plea for mercy and to stop, but he continued. Brezhnev had pulled up a chair and watched as the beating continued. Charles managed to get a few words out between the swings

    “You…could….lead… lead…them”

    Brezhnev put his hand up in the air and Mikhail stopped, he walked over to Charles and came down low to his face to see his eyes. They were beaten, and bloodied, but they were fierce, there was determination, resilience and a quiet fire raging in him.

    “If Khrushchev makes peace with America…. he will… seem weak… you can strike, you can lead”

    Brezhnev cupped Charles’ cheek in his hand and then gently slapped it, and smirked.

    He stood up and turned to Mikhail.

    “Get the knife, I want his tongue”

    Mikhail walked toward the table, laughing like a giddy child, and rolled out his kit. He pulled out a large pliers and a thin sharp knife and turned back to Brezhnev. A shot rang out and Charles winced, his ears ringing from it and the pain of his beating amplifying it. He had closed his eyes and when he opened them Brezhnev was standing before him holstering his pistol. Mikhail lay on the floor by the table, dead.

    “Speak, or the next bullets are for both of you”

    “We can convince the Americans, but I need assurance”

    “I need assurances, a lot more than you!”

    “This site needs to be dysfunctional, TODAY, to give me time to get to Washington.”

    “Khrushchev will suspect the Americans, it wont work, it will escalate”

    “Tell him it was your spies, radicalized by the local rebels, undercover too long, you saved the base, but you could not save the power station, you need time to rebuild”

    “The Americans won’t go for it, why would they, it is madness”

    “Sign a letter, that with Cuba over you will get rid of Khrushchev and you will end the Nuclear programmes, tell me what we need to do to convince Moscow”

    “They are afraid of Turkey, it will need to be dismantled, and this base in Italy must stop immediately, if they promise that, there will be a truce, for now”

    “You must use this momentum to end Khrushchev’s reign, stop this nuclear obsession and end this war”

    “I will do it for my country, or I will die.”

    Brezhnev cut them loose and Lucía fell to the ground, in agony and the skin of her arm burning still, she could not speak, could barely walk, and was lucid. Brezhnev began to throw petrol from a can on the shelf all over the maintenance shed, then he lit a match and flung it. The shed caught fire and burst into flames as they entered the courtyard.

    “Go Charles, take her back to the boat, he kept Money on board and the keys to a small plane that sits in the port, it will take to you to America, go now, I will buy you a few days. Don’t fail Mr Masters, this is the fate of the world.”

    Charles put himself under Lucía and shouldered her weight, he took her to the fence and turned back just as Brezhnev was shooting at his own car. By the time they reached the forest again the explosions began, first a small one in the maintenance store and then two large explosions. Charles watched as the tower came down taking the powerlines with it. They ripped toward the ground in a straight-line destroying tree and the soil beneath it, and he could see all the way into the valley the power poles exploding.

    They made it to the car and Charles put Lucía into the back. The journey back to Bahia was long and Charles was in agony the whole way, he made a call ahead on the radio and drove as fast as he could. When they reached the port, it was almost night again and Charles was delirious, he was in great pain from the beating and it’s possible his ribs were broken.

    The jeep pulled in at a café and Charles stepped out. A voice called out from the terrace

    “Fancy a cup of tea”

    Charles turned to see the leather merchant from the day before. More than a leather merchant, this was Charles contact in Bahia Honda and the reason he came this way with Lucía. They had planned to meet back there after blowing the station and continue on to San Cristobal.

    “Not just now, I am afraid it’s a little too late. I wouldn’t mind a hand lifting a package”

    They both lifted Lucía from the back of the car and carried her down the pier to the boat. When they got inside the cabin, there was a woman waiting with a nurse’s bag, she motioned hurriedly to the bed, and they lay Lucía down. She began to check her and put cold towels on her arm and her forehead. Charles walked back out onto the deck to speak to the merchant.

    “Did you find the plane”

    “Yes, it was in the next port over, still there, fueled and ready. You can rest and fly in the morning”

    “No, no, this cannot wait, I must fly tonight, where is the pilot”

    “Sir, you are seriously beaten and injured, you cannot”

    “Tell him to be ready, we leave at midnight, no delay”

    The plane landed in a small field airstrip just outside Washinton DC, it was as the morning was breaking. Charles got off the plane and headed to the tree line, there was a car parked there, keys already inside. He jumped in and opened a go-bag on the passenger seat, there was a fresh suit, new identifications, a folder of files and a pistol. On the way into D.C he stopped into a hotel and got a room under his new identity, James Wilson. First, he would freshen up, and then he would visit the White House.

    It was just after 9am in the morning when McGeorge Bundy, National Security Advisor to President Kennedy, entered the West Wing. Underneath his arm was a red folio, the same one that was presented to him at his home every morning, by his detail. The file contained a 24-hour security summary on a number of subjects; persons of interest, ongoing surveillance missions, regime reports from across the world and most importantly impending threats to America. By 10am he would be sitting in front of the president and providing these updates to create the days security action plan. When he got to his office, his secretary was not at her desk as usual, and his office door was ajar. He slowed down and entered the room to find his secretary leaning on his desk and laughing with a stranger who was facing the opposite direction.

    “Martha! I was not expecting a 9am, has my schedule changed or have you forgotten to tell me”

    Martha was startled and jumped to attention, fixing herself, brushing her skirt and trying to stutter together a sentence.

    “Mr Bundy… No… I… this is Mr…”

    Charles rose from his seat, buttoned his jacket closed and stretched out his hand.

    “Wilson, James Wilson, I am sorry to drop in on you on such short notice. Martha has been a gracious host, and I told her we were old friends”

    Bundys eyes were wide and he was shaking Charles hand without any words.

    “Yes, yes, I just was not expecting to see you, at all, or ever again. I am in shock. Thank you, Martha, you can leave us”

    Charles took his seat again and Bundy went around the other side of the desk, dropping his folder down and picking up a pack of cigarettes, he lit one, and took a seat.

    “Charles, I opened that folder there this morning and read through it on the way here. Right in the middle was a piece about two missing agents from MI5 and the DGSE, presumed dead in Cuba. I knew you were there and I assumed the worst, and still, here you are, in my office, waiting, what in the world”

    “Well Bundy my man, they left this folder right here in my hands out of your little folio. See in here it explains that the two bodies in Cuba are Russian Sleepers, sent to Cuba a number of years ago to begin early operations there. They met their end in a power station in the hills of San Cristobal, which was then blown up only minutes later… by Leonid Brezhnev”

    “Komandir Brezhnev!”

    “The very man Bundy, the very man. See you were right to worry, it was nearly the end for me in that power station, but I have always been persuasive and if it is one thing man wants more than war, it is power. Our Komandir awaits the end of this standstill in Cuba before he acts in Moscow”

    “He intends to challenge Krushchev, what does he want of us, we have our own concerns, they are practically on the doorstep, and John won’t want to back down”

    “I know Kennedy has his reservations, but he is a rational man, here’s what needs to happen. In this folder is a number in Moscow, Khrushchev’s direct line. Gather up the council, Johnson and Kennedy, and convince him to make the call. Tell them you will dismantle the base in Turkey and as a gesture wind down the base in Italy, this will be enough. They will agree to pull out of Cuba.”

    “Then what Charles, he still wants war, first it was space, then it was the nuclear programme, now he’s making plans for berlin, we don’t know what’s behind that curtain. You want me to trust one of his own men”

    “I want you to trust me McGeorge, Brezhnev won’t stop until he gets Krushchev out. I met the man, his country’s hurting, they can’t fight the war and rebuild the nation, they must look inward. This will give him the chance to make Khrushchev seem radical, erratic and weak, then your man in Moscow will be one you can trust”

    “Somedays I don’t even trust myself Charles”

    “You’re doing good Bundy, it’s going to okay, tell Kennedy I said hello”

    Charles rose from his chair and pulled his hat and coat from the rack and headed for the door.

    “Wait! London thinks you’re dead, we got the memo, what do you want me to say”

    “You know what McGeorge, tell them another one of your reporters was in here this morning, hot off the press, and forget about me.”

    “Where are you going to go”

    “I got a date, down in Miami beach, she’s on the slow boat from Cuba”

     

    The New York Times                                    October 28th  1962

    Soviet Union Agrees to Dismantle Cuban Missile Sites; Kennedy Says Crisis Over

     

  • The Animal Classes

    Suki and I sat on the bank, staring at the swans. She shifted stances, her head tilting, ears pricking to attention, tracking their movements. I wondered for a moment, if she considered these creatures almost like a social elite. It was clear she held for them a great curiosity, matched only by her animosity. Dogs it seemed could almost fit the title of the working classes in the kingdom. Modern thought is that sheep are blind followers, a lower class of thinkers, allowing others to guide their actions, and their thought. Suki and her kind are independent thinkers yet hold to a certain respect the opinions and directions of their people. If that makes them the working-class animal, it would come to wonder why we pit them against sheep, having them herd and control. Do sheep not contribute to society with their wool, with their tending to fields, with their docile nature.

    The swan in its majesty glides on water and through air, with ease. Often you will find their herd surrounded by ducks, like followers, admirers, sticking close. To a dogs knowledge the swan does nothing, merely known for its looks and its fickle nature. Many a dog have been wounded in their attempts to interact with this royal bird. To harm a swan would bring the wrath of society itself to a doorstep, they live beneath the protection of kings and queens. Yet Suki herself knows the harsh reality of nature and its betrayal, and the cruelty of people. Where was society and all its protection when she was at the mercy of an abusive hand. Dogs live on the reliance of people willing to take them in, to make space, to find space, for love and protection.

    I doubt that most animals ever find their place in the kingdom. They move from day to day following paths laid out before them, confining themselves to their herds, their packs, their gaggles. Dogs have found their place, in our homes, in our hearts and let their nature guide them. They go to work everyday, bringing joy, companionship, empathy, responsibility and innocence to their people. They’re not the only ones in the kingdom to do this, to become pets to people, there are many others. Yet dogs are in their own space in society, as protectors, companions, dependents. The very people they rely on would be lost without them, and lesser for never having met them.

    I don’t know what Suki thinks of swans, I wish I  knew, not that it changes a thing. It is doubtful that animals will ever debate the nuances of the class system among them. Perception of their place, and their worth in the kingdom is often considered in view of their strength, their aggression, their willingness to survive. Still, it is not the killer instinct, the speed or their ferocity that earned dogs their place amongst us. They teach us about redemption, forgiveness, love, and loss. Within all that we become better people, more rounded, more softened, more willing, to find our own place, to make our own differences.

    We got up and walked on, leaving the swans to perform for the ducks and the dogless.

  • Me & The Borstal Boy

    THE GRAND CANAL MIDDAY – SUNNY

     

    Enter SEAMUS walking along the canal, at pace. We are following from behind; he is shifting his bag onto the opposite shoulder as he approaches a bench and takes a seat.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Seated, rummaging through his bag)

    Listen, I need to talk to you again, I changed some of the points around, but I just can’t get the story flowing at all.

     

    Seamus pulls a tattered manuscript from his bag and flicks through it, creasing it along the edge. He turns to show it to the statue of Brendan Behan. The statue does not reply.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Sitting back and running his pencil along the pages, occasionally looking up towards the statue)

    Why do you always look at me so interested? I haven’t written an interesting thing in this silly little book since I put the pencil to the paper.                                        I know we talked about pushing through and trusting the process but that’s easy for you to say, isn’t it?

     

    He runs his hands over his face and back through his hair. A swan is leaving the water in front of him as he speaks.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Occasionally biting on his pencil and jotting on a fresh page)

    This bit here ‘Big Troubles in Little Derry.’ Do ya really think they’ll take me seriously? I am all for a bit of humor but                                                                               that’s close to taking the piss. How did you do it, they talk about you like you weren’t half cut most of the time, and                                                                                   laughing at the world. I mean no disrespect, of course, I’m just trying to get it right. Take your man here for instance,                                                                             he’s some fella on the water but he looks a right eejit running along the path with those feet.

     

    CUT TO:

    CANAL BANK

     

    Swan running along the water’s edge towards a pile of crumbs, flapping its wings as it waddles closer. Taking the bread, enters the water and glides away into the distance.

     

    CUT TO:

     

    BENCH

     

    Seamus still seated and fidgeting with his pencil.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Getting animated, occasionally standing, and pacing while he points with his pencil)

    Off he goes there, swanning around, eh? Look, how am I supposed to talk about the political landscape when I                                                                                           wasn’t even there, it’s hardly a biography now is it. There’s something to say about it all, even now, with years                                                                                            gone by, but who am I to tell that story. It just — It keeps me up, thinking about it all and feeling like there                                                                                                were so many voices, silenced or screaming into the void, for no one to hear. I hear them, I see them, they’re                                                                                               real to me.

     

    Seamus, seated now, puts his book on the ground, taking out a pack of cigarettes from his breast pocket and lighting one up.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Agitated, speaking in broken sentences, aggressively puffing on a cigarette)

    THE BORSTAL BOY. You knew how, to write it, to capture it. It wasn’t about us and them, was it. The                                                                                                         enemy, there’s one, the enemy, just people. What for, who for, people died, what about them. I’m not the                                                                                                     guy, I cant be, how do I begin, how does it end? It never will, it never will.

     

    Seamus looking resigned pulls his pack from his pocket, extinguishing the cigarette and placing it back inside of the packet and into his pocket.

     

    SEAMUS

    (leaning back, hands rested on the back of his head, looking into distance)

    We couldn’t have been romance writers, could we? Although, you weren’t too bad at making this                                                                                                                    place seem like the jewel at the centre of the world. I think the stories we tell, when they’re so full of                                                                                                              truth, are simply unpalatable. So, we soften them with prose, humor, and levity until it becomes less                                                                                                            about fact, and more about feeling right?

     

    Seamus picks up the manuscript and flicks through it making different faces at sections of writing.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Shifting in his seat, showing parts of his writing to Brendan)

    See this, well you’re lucky actually, you never did. There were ideals in your time, a battle against                                                                                                                  the system, the culture, the history. It got nasty when you left, when the voices of reason were                                                                                                                        drowned out by the undying taste for blood. It wasn’t just the enemy anymore, it was their own,                                                                                                                    it was ordinary people, it was anybody, and it was all the time. Bombs, bodies, secrets and blood,                                                                                                                  some would say for nothing.

     

    Seamus folds the manuscript over and takes a picture from the back page to examine it.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Looking at the picture and speaking softly)

    Aunty Eileen, what a woman, you’d have liked her. She’d a fierce sense of humor, the most beautiful                                                                                                             singer and she’d likely to be the first to the fight. This was the summer, the last one, before she                                                                                                                       disappeared. I was only a boy, but I know loved her, cause I feel it, I feel like I did, like I would, ya                                                                                                                 know. Sometimes, I can’t remember a thing about her, I forget her, like everyone else did. I don’t                                                                                                                   want to forget her, I don’t want to lose her, I want to find her.

     

    Seamus puts the picture back in the manuscript and folds a leg over to lean the book on it, and begins to write.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Looking down and speaking as he writes)

    What do you think justice is? Is it about payback, revenge, closure, I don’t know what I want.                                                                                                                          Guess, I just want answers, but I don’t even know the questions, or the person to ask. The thing                                                                                                                      about telling a story with a clear ending is figuring out where it all began, and I’m not so sure I                                                                                                                      know where that is. Maybe — the last time I saw her face, yeah — in the morning before the last                                                                                                                  day of school, before the darkest summer of my life.

     

    Seamus sits for some time writing. Time passes, light changes.

     

    SEAMUS

    (Packing away his things into his bag and beginning to leave)

    Well fella, we did good today, don’t ya think? I know what it’s about now, what I’m about.                                                                                                                                Her, it was always her, it had to be. Thanks for that, you’ve still got it. Now don’t go                                                                                                                                            anywhere will ya, I’ll be back.

     

    Seamus rises, stopping to smile down on Brendan before walking away.

     

     

     

    CUT TO:

     

    REAR OF SEAMUS WALKING AWAY IN EVENING LIGHT

     

    SEAMUS

    (Narrating)

    Chapter 1, Come Home Eileen.

    She stood holding court in the kitchen, in the morning, I remember it was warm, she was warm. I felt safe, I felt loved, I feel like she deserved that too, she still does.

  • The Radiogram

    The boxes were starting to block the hall, piling high. Each with a scribble on the side; books, ornaments, kitchenware, scarves. Moving vans would not arrive until the end of the week, still plenty of time to organise everything. The family had been helping over the last few todays, today it was just James. The motivation had entirely left him, he found himself wandering about the house. Room to room, drinking it all in, reliving memories, of the years, which had seemed to fall away.

    Of course, this wasn’t his home, well not anymore. It still held all its sentimentality, its familiarity, its warmth, even its character. It had been years though, since it was home. He wished the walls would talk, tell him all the stories, from his youth. Both had lived long enough to meet their grandchildren, to watch them grow. He wondered would his own walk the halls of their home one day, thinking of him. The dining room had not been touched since it happened, he stepped inside, sitting down.

    They had always sat in this room, tucked away at the back of the house. She would sit there, battling balls of wool, night after night. Beside her, he would sit reading, book after book, fiction, instructional, biography, it never mattered. They would stop from time to time, to talk, to laugh, to think about the past, talk about their future. In the corner of the room, a radiogram, filling the air. Each night, a new album as they sat silently, but happily, together.

    James would come to see them often, more so as the years had gone on. He wished it had been more, it seemed like he never had time, until it was too late. His father had sat there, many years longer than his mother. James coming to see him, finding the notes of songs slipping into the hallway, his father would be there in this chair, reading. The pile of books alongside, smaller than before. James found him here , just the week before. He seemed to the world to be sleeping, book on his chest, in his favourite place, their favourite place, one last time.

    James rose from the chair and opened the sliding door of the radiogram to find a record. It was dusty from sitting out, untouched. It was an old favourite of theirs ‘Hits from the 60s’. He turned the record on, dusting it as it spun, then slowly lifted the needle onto it. The fuzz filled the room, the anticipation, of the opening notes, of the first song. Then like a gust of air filled the room, it slipped from the speakers. He immediately felt the weight of the song, possibly the last his father ever heard. Returning to the chair, tears began to fall, as he sat in silence. An unmistakable crooning voice began to sing

    “And now, the end is near. I must face the final curtain” 

  • The Waiting Room

    “Take a seat, he will see you shortly”

    She shuffled into the small familiar room. Taking a seat opposite the window, keeping the reception in full view.

    The windows were draughty and always made her cold. Better to sit where she could see the receptionist. If they could see you, they would call you sooner. It was easy to be forgotten in this small room, where thirty minutes is and hour and an hour is a minute.

    Time was relative to your infliction, to the aches or pains. For those who had a cold, flu, or injury, something tangible, visible. Well for them it seemed as if every second was an hour, it seemed to never end, it seemed as this was the end.

    Her lot had it just as hard but just the opposite. If you had the invisible ones, that ate away at your body or your mind. Well then, every hour was a second, time slipped away and they spent it rooms like this, waiting.

    Rooms, filled with despair and plastered with hope. Life & Travel magazines lined the tables, as if to taunt them, why not just stop trying to live. She could take the next flight, and just give up. Six months maybe more, it might be worth it, it might be easier. They always said living was hard.

    The fight was worth it, a woman against the clock, against the unknown, against the invisible. Each visit to this room was the battle against fate, awaiting the final call, the swan song.

    A cheating husband apologized to his dying wife on the tv in the corner. Somehow it made the room feel lighter, the world seemed cruel, but for everyone, not just her.

    “Miss Baker”

    Here she goes, the final walk, all over again.

  • Operation Solar

    The blizzard was at its height as Julie made her way across the frozen lake. Flags flew high in the distance signaling she was near the facility. She tucked herself in and pushed the snowmobile harder to break through the southern winds. As she approached, the gusts of snow began to clear and black smoke invaded the skyline. Julie stopped on the top of the hill and looked down in horror at the facility in flames. She picked up her speed and rushed down into the valley. The far side of the dome seemed less damaged so she drove there to see if she could find an entrance. When she arrived, she found the wall blown out and the light of the labs flooding like the sun out onto the snow.

    Julie made her way into the facility near the containment centre, which was empty. Wires hung from the ceiling, the terminals were destroyed, and the thick glass walls were either cracked or shattered on the floor. She moved down the hall toward the command, and living quarters. As she turned the corner she found the first body, an older technician named Joe, he was slumped over and his head dipped forward. His blood was all over the wall, the back of his skull was opened and exposed. Julie lost her footing, grabbing out for something and slipping forward, she fell into a puddle of blood. As she tried to gain her footing, not looking back, she suddenly noticed the body parts strewn about the corridor. It wasn’t quite clear how many people she was looking at. Arms, torsos, bloodied heads, scattered about. Julie tried to shield her eyes and moved towards the command.

    As she approached the double doors, she spotted a bloodied handprint. The doors had large portholes; one was lying slightly open. On the ground a hand was outstretched, stopping the doors from closing. Julie moved closer to look through the porthole. She came to realize the arm was not attached to anything, a limbless body lay in the center of the command space. The door was stiff and seemed to have been damaged, she struggled to open it and squeeze through. Julie made her way towards the central terminals where she might be able to call for help or thought she might find survivors. This was where they would be, the Command was the centre of the facility and was supposed to be the safest place. It seemed it was utterly destroyed; most terminals were damaged and there were small fires breaking out in corners of the room. As Julie turned into the room, she stood frozen as she looked up at the wall. The Director was impaled and hanging from the large research screens that occupied the entire space. The screens were flickering with footage, broken images and data. Sticking from his chest was the project solar flag, a Vitruvian man surrounded by a sun, in black and yellow detail. Julie could see other bodies and parts of people around the room and tried to focus herself on the task.

    The central terminal was beyond repair and meant she was without any means of communication. In the lower left corner of the wall, a screen was looping security footage from some hours before. Julie made her way toward the playback terminal and found it still functional. She began to search back over the footage to see if she could make sense of this tragedy. There was a power outage in the containment centre, it seems the generator kicked in, that explains the lab lights. Then it seems the security seals failed, and the pressure locks didn’t hold. The experiment, no, it woke up. It seemed to have broken through the glass walls, the security alarms began sounding but Joe was stuck in the lab, the power failed in the door. Once it escaped, it got hold of him, thrashing him against the wall before being set upon by the response team. Julie could not look away as she watched them all ripped apart and beaten to death. The final person was trying to get into the command when it caught him and used his body to burst through the doors before ripping him limb from limb.

    Julie watched as it stalked the director through the terminals, before taking the flagpole and running it through him like skewering meat, sending him flying into the wall. It made quick work of the other technicians and then set about destroying the facility. There were no cameras in the living quarters and Julie could not be sure if there was anyone left. Even worse, she was unsure where it might have gone, was it still here, she start to check the live feeds. Most cameras were down but she could pick up some flickering images. It seemed some of the south complex was still intact, perhaps people were there. The interior images showed nothing and so she began to check the exterior. Most feeds showed the storm or the billowing smoke or just flashes of white. Until she came to the tower above the containment centre, it was there. It was standing over her snowmobile, examining it, and pulling at it. Suddenly it lifted it clean from the ground and flung it into opening that Julie had entered through. The explosion shook the command, and she had briefly ducked beneath the desk during the impact. When she looked back at the screen it was no longer standing there.

    Julie broke from the terminal and ran toward the living quarters. She may be able to make it out through the rear of the food hall and into the southern complex, it may be safe there, it seemed untouched. Each door she came to lead to another new scene of death or destruction. She tried to set her mind to the task at hand but with each familiar face she passed, the fear within her grew. The roof in the food hall was caved in and hung by the suspension ropes that held the dome together. She made her way into the kitchen, the equipment was strewn about and it meant she had to climb and jump over counters and under overturned fridges. Finally, she came to the rear exit, this would take her through the tunnel and into the southern complex. She stopped and turned back into the kitchen collecting a large knife. As she entered the tunnel she noticed that the red emergency strip lights along each side were lit all the way to the southern complex. She walked down the tunnel and looked toward the large steel doors that led into the complex. There were two large yellow lights turning and flashing towards her as she came up to the door. Julie reached the steel doors, and the large security lock was engaged, maybe this was a good sign. She pulled her security badge from beneath her layers and scanned it on the keypad. A large beeping sounding filled the tunnel as the lock released and the doors opened into the complex.

    Julie stepped inside and noticed the electricity was still on and through the door she noticed a small fire, it seemed to be intentional. Her hands reached for the door, and she entered the room. At first, she could not make out the pile in front of her but it suddenly hit her, bodies. In the corner a stack of heads, their lifeless eyes looking deep into her own. The fire in the corner had bones sticking from it and Julie turned quickly, to leave the room. When she got back to the tunnel she looked down into the abyss. It was standing in the glow of the red lights looking down, and moving slowly toward her. Julie panicked and fell, crawling backwards on her hands, she had dropped the knife in her shock and was too far from it now. As it grew closer, she suddenly noticed the emergency button and rose from the ground, pressing it repeatedly, in a panic. The large steel doors began to close, and the beeping rang out once again, now it was picking up pace. The doors just shut as it reached them, and the security seal was closing but she could hear it pulling the large metal bars back into place. She made her way back into the room, and looked for another exit.

    The southern complex was where they kept the gas reserve to run the main labs, so it was set into the ground. It seemed as if it had made a type of lair here and must have been intending to settle in. Julie ran toward the rear of the room and looked for the emergency exit plans. There was a maintenance hatch that led up to the bottom of the south hill. She was considering her options when she heard the metal of the doors bending and cracking, followed by loud thuds, it was not going to hold. Julie looked around the room and thought her best chance was to make it to the outreach centre, across the frozen lake. There was still power in the computers, and Julie began to override the controls. There were loud warning sirens filling the space and a countdown was showing on the main screen by the tanks. Julie ran to the steel ladder leading up into a tube all the way to the surface, and climbed. Her body ached with each step she made towards the hatch, meters above. The sound of the door being pulled open echoed up the tube. It was in the room, then it was down below. She looked down, as it spread its arms and began to pull itself up the tube. Julie was nearly at the hatch now, and fumbling in her pocket as she rose. Julie swung open the hatch and burst out into the snow. Not taking a breath, she was over the hatch again, watching it climb. She pulled a remote from her pocket and pressed it, releasing the gas into the room. It ignited and filled the tube, engulfing everything as Julie closed the hatch over, and ran up the hill for safety.

    She watched from the hilltop as the ground around the hatch crumbled. The southern complex collapsed in on itself and she stood looking over the ruins of the facility, trying to make sense of how it had all happened. The southern hill lead down to the frozen lake so she set out towards it. If she crossed the frozen lake, she could make it to the outreach centre and contact the relief team. Each step she took cracked into the ice with intention. The studs of her boots holding her in place as the wind whipped up. She tried to set the thoughts of all her friends out of her mind. The bloodied bodies, the lifeless eyes, the limbs, it was more than she could bear. They had studied the experiment for months, getting to know its biology, movements, behaviors. It was the common consensus that proceeding was unwise. They had all agreed not to thaw out the others, all except the director. He was adamant that Operation Solar must continue, that understanding the experiment may change the world forever. The day Julie had set out for the supply run and to share the data with the relief team, the facility was winding down and they were discussing termination options. She had wondered now what had really happened and was it less divine intervention than blind sabotage.

     

    The frozen lake was an unforgiving landscape, and all Julie could think about was making it to safety. It had been hours since, and if it had followed, she had not noticed. Surely the flames would have destroyed it for good, she had hoped. The outreach centre had supplies for about a month if she needed, and it was set into the ground with thick steel walls on all sides. The hatch was the most secure she had ever seen. No storm or blizzard had ever come close to bothering her in the outreach centre. She was certain she would be safe there until help arrived. All she had to do was make it, and she may just survive. All that ran through her mind, was just how much of a miracle it was, that she had survived. The others had been torn, broken and pulled apart, here she was still standing, moving toward freedom, away from this waking nightmare. The flags of the outreach centre flapped in the wind upon the ridge and Julie felt hope rise in her. She dipped her head, forcing her way forward. Soon she was nearly upon the base of the path. Julie stopped in her tracks and looked into the distance, there it was, the man from the ice.

     

    He stood at the base of the hill staring at her, unlike anything she had ever seen. When they first discovered them, she been filled with fear. Large monstrous figures, muscular, chiseled, towering above them, frozen within the ice. Their eyes had haunted her dreams at the beginning, green with no whites always open, day and night. Now those eyes were looking at her across the lake. Julie had only ever observed him in unconscious states and now that she was looking upon him in the flesh she wondered if he was even of this world. His upper torso was as wide as it was tall, his enormous hands were spread, he held them in front as he approached her. Julie had not moved and now she was running questions in her mind with no answers. As he approached, her eye caught the ridge and she spotted them, the others, it can’t be. She cast her eyes back to him and realized it was not their man, it was another, but how. Then from behind her she heard the ice cracking. Julie turned to the thunderous sound of his feet approaching her. His body was blackened and burnt and his piercing green eyes locked with hers and she knew it was over.

  • I Love You Dad

    Jake was standing in the aisle staring at a shelf, with lots of toys on it. He really liked cars and trucks, but he was looking at a toy set with some little teddy bears having a picnic. It would be his birthday in a few days, his dad had told him. He really hoped he would get some new things to play with.

    “Jake, come on, let’s go”

    He ran to the end of the aisle, his dad was waiting with a shopping bag and his hand outstretched. They walked towards the door hand in hand, as his dad pulled him close and looked on with a gentle smile. Jake was lightly skipping when he saw the noticeboard in the window. It had posters and ads all over it, including one for a bouncy castle. Jake had never been on a bouncy castle, he had only ever seen them in the front yards of his neighborhood. He stopped in his tracks and scanned the board and all it’s posters. His squeezed his hand and lightly nudged him forward.

    “Can I have a bouncy castle for my birthday, please, please dad?”

    “I don’t think so, your birthday is only a few days away, I’m not sure we could organize it in time. I think it would too big for just the both of us anyway”

    “I’ve always wanted to go on one, they look so fun, I seen the other kids jumping and jumping”

    “I know, I know, maybe another time”

    Suddenly he pointed to a poster at the top of the board, it was slightly obscured by other papers, but the picture was clear.

    “Hey dad, that picture looks like me! It’s a funny looking drawing”

    “I don’t really see it son, come on, let’s go”

    They left the store and began to walk down the main street. Jake always held his dad’s hand in public and stayed close by, just as he was told. His favorite game was jumping over the cracks in the pavement and trying not to stand on them. Usually, his dad would let him do this on the way to the store but on the way back Jake would help to carry the groceries. He liked to carry the milk, he would swing it back and forth as he walked, sometimes pretending it was a rocket ship, flying them home. Jake had a great imagination and would often make up his own games and characters in stories. He would look at people that they passed and give them funny names like ‘Big Beard Mc Rucksack’ or ‘Old Blondey Hat’, when he got home, he would name his dolls after them and play with them.

    It was the middle of the afternoon, they always went shopping at that time. The autumn leaves were in full bloom, the trees that lined the street were washed in yellows, reds and oranges. Jake would step on leaves and hope they had dried, then they would crunch beneath his feet, and he would stomp on to the next one. They had passed all the stores and were nearly at the end of the street. Jake loved this part; they were going to pass the school soon. He would look in at all the children laughing and playing, wondering what the games were. Sometimes he would think about some kids he saw, and they would be in his stories, and he would name the dolls after them.

    “Dad, when am I going to be big enough to go to school”

    “Well, you have school at home, remember, I can teach you everything”

    “I know daddy, but there’s no other kids in our school, who am I going to play with”

    “I’ll play with you, we can play picnic and play crash cars, don’t you like playing with me?”

    “I do, I do, just sometimes… sometimes I want to play with other kids… kids like me”

    “Okay, maybe in the summer, we can go to the park and find some other kids, maybe”

    His dad gripped his hand firmly as they came up to the traffic lights. They crossed over the road and made their way towards a wide-open field that cut across the backs of the houses, and towards their own. Jake, when he behaved, was allowed to run in this field and his dad decided he could today. He handed his dad back the milk, and he put it into the bag. Then he took off, throwing his hands out and zig zagging through the long blades of grass. He imagined he was as fast as wind and light as a feather. His dad didn’t let him play like this often, so when he gave him some freedom Jake would make the most of it, running, jumping and skipping through the grass. As they came close to the other end of the field, his dad just outstretched his hand, and Jake returned to his side.

    Their house was at the end of a street lined with homes on either side. It stood alone, separated from the others and sat on the curve at the end of the road. It was detached on all sides and had a garage at the rear that backed into the field. It had high walls but, in the front, a spiked picketed fence with a locked gate. They entered through the back into the kitchen, and his dad began to put the groceries away.

    “Jake, go and get your books out, I’ll be in there in a minute”

    “MORE class! but I thought I could play”

    “We didn’t finish our lesson this morning, I’ll have work to do today, so you can play after, get your books”

    He left the kitchen and dragged himself across the sitting room. He had really wanted to play outside with his dolls. He grabbed some books from the coffee table and set them on the old desk underneath the window. There was a lamp, a box of pens and an abacus on the desk. He walked over and turned on the lamp, illuminating the space, the curtains always stayed closed. His dad had said that people look into other people’s houses through their windows, because they were nosy. He didn’t want them seeing inside their house, so they never opened the curtains and always used lamps. The house was very dark all the time, that’s why Jake liked play time. He would swing open the door and run out into the yard with his dolls. It didn’t matter if it was cold or even raining, if dad said yes then Jake would go outside, whenever he could.

    His dad entered the room and made his way over to a large chair that sat facing the desk. He would often sit behind Jake or stand over him during their lessons.

    “Sums or reading, I will let you choose what we do first”

    “Can I read my stories?”

    “No Jake, I have told you, stories are not for learning, stories are for fun. You need to learn more about reading and writing”

    “Do we have to do sums”

    “Stop avoiding the work, choose now, or I will choose for you, come on”

    “Okay, I’ll do the writing”

    “Wonderful, let’s do the one we did yesterday”

    “The one about the fox and the dog playing in the woods with the fairies, and the other kids”

    “Jake, lets focus, that wasn’t it”

    “Wouldn’t that be fun though, playing with a fox and a dog, I’d like to get a dog to play with.

    “Please don’t make me get impatient, pick up your pen and start writing.

    Jake had shifted around toward his dad but now was facing the window with his pen in his hand. He began to trace the words out along the page, again and again. Each time carefully drawing every letter slowly and precisely. He filled every line until he reached the bottom of the page and could not write any further.

    “I’m done writing, I filled the WHOLE page”

    “Okay then, read it to me”

    “The q… qui.. quick b, b, br…brown FOX j,jumped over the la, la, lazy DOG

    “Read it again, but don’t stutter on the words, read it slowly”

    Jake sighed and re-adjusted himself in the chair, focusing in on the words. He knew his favorite words because they were dog and fox, but the others were just boring.

    “The… quick…brown… FOX jumped… over the…. lazy…DOG!”

    “Very good, now why are we writing this down?”

    “For practice”

    “Yes, but why this sentence”

    “Oh, cause it has lots of letters!”

    “Close, but more importantly, it has all the letters of the alphabet. So, you can practice writing each and every one, let’s move onto sums now.”

    Jake slowly packed away his writing book and put his pen back into the box in front of him and started pulling the abacus closer. It was a large wooden abacus with metal rings on it, there were ten rows down and thirty rings on each row. His dad had told him that he made this abacus specially for him. Jake used to love the abacus, running the beads from side to side, making shapes and designs with it. Ever since they started doing sums, he didn’t have any fun with the abacus, it was boring, and all he could do was think of playing outside, with his dolls.

    “Can we skip sums today, please”

    “No Jake, come on, just a little more time”

    “Its boring, I want to play, I don’t like counting”

    “The things we find the hardest are the things we should work on the most, just a little longer”

    “Okay, then I can play outside”

    “Well, if you get this sum all right, then I will let you play outside for thirty minutes”

    “Yay, okay, one sum”

    “I want you to move three beads across on the first row and all the beads across on the last row, then fill in the rows in between with times tables”

    Jake was more focused than ever, he had done this everyday this week, he didn’t like it, but he really wanted to go outside and play. He wasn’t good at counting or sums, but he was good at drawing and painting pictures. He remembered from the day before how the abacus was supposed to look and he started moving over rings, shifting them back and forth until he was happy. He sat back and looked over his shoulder at his dad, who was staring at him the entire time.

    “Are you done?”

    “I think so, yes, I am”

    “Say the numbers for me, on each row and we can finish for the day”

    Jake looked at the beads and thought about the numbers from the day before, he couldn’t remember them. So, he went row by row counting the bead as he slid it across, then proclaiming the final number. His father watched patiently as Jake took his time carefully completing the task. Finally, he came to the second last row and moved the final bead into place.

    “27! Am I right, is it playtime, is it?”

    “You were right, but I know you were counting the beads. That’s not how these sums are done, so tomorrow, we will do double sums”

    “DOUBLE SUMS”

    “Yes, now you can have thirty minutes outside, but I want you inside for dinner straight after”

    Jake rose excitedly from the desk, leaving everything behind. He ran out into the hallway where there was an open wooden box full of different dolls and doll clothing. There was a picnic blanket rolled in a ball by the front door, so he grabbed it. Jake began to undo the locks on the door, there were quite a few. His dad had said this kept them safe. He burst out onto the front lawn, it was patchy and mostly unkept, but he lay down the blanket and began lining up his dolls.

    Beardy Mc Rucksack and Old Blondey Hat were getting ready to go to a new school and Jake was going to go with them. This is the game he was playing and had imagined that he would go to school with his two new friends, where he would play all the new games, and meet all the other kids. Usually, Jake would like to imagine he had a dog too and his new friends were going to come by after school to meet him.

    “Hello there” a call came from down by the fence

    Jake looked around to see a familiar face, he had seen him just a few days before for the first time, then again, a few more times. He had named a doll after him, ‘Mr Greencoat’. He got up from the blanket and walked towards him. This stranger wore a green military coat and looked disheveled, his light hair was greasy and unkept, it seemed as though he had not washed for some time too.

    “Hello” Jake said as he approached the fence

    “Hey Kid, what’s your name”

    “My names Jake!”

    “What are you up to over there Jake”

    “I’m playing games with my dolls; we’re going to go to school”

    “School? Don’t you already go to school, why not go somewhere more fun”

    “I wish I went to school; it would be so fun. I have school with my dad at home.”

    The stranger leaned forward and began to prop himself over the fence, closer to Jake.

    “How old are you Jake”

    “Dad says I’ll be seven in a few days, and he says we’re going to have cake and he’s going to get me some new toys!

    “Seven! How exciting, are you going to have a party?”

    “Its just me and my dad, two people can’t have a party”

    “You look a little older than seven Jake, you’re a big boy”

    “I’m getting taller and taller; I can nearly reach the sky”

    “Just you and your daddy here, no one else?”

    “No, just me and my dad, he’s my friend too, and we play games and read stories, but I would like to have more friends”

    “Maybe I could be your friend, we could go somewhere fun like down to the school, would you like that?”

    “I’d love to go to the school! I named my doll after you Mr Greencoat, you were the bus driver for the school”

    “I could take you there sometime”

    Jakes dad came rushing from the house screaming at him.

    “JAKE! Get over here”

    Jake jumped and was filled with a sudden panic, as he looked back towards his dad. He turned and gave a small, scared wave to Mr Greencoat and then ran back up the garden towards his dad.

    “Get in the house right away and go to your room” Jakes dad said as he grabbed the doll from Jakes hand

    The stranger stood gripping the tops of the fence and staring at Jakes dad. A serious look had washed over his face, and he was trying to hold his tongue, as he watched Jake scamper inside.

    Jakes dad turned his attention to the stranger. Pushing back his shoulders and adjusting himself, he walked calmly towards the fence.

    “Do you mind telling me what exactly you were saying to my son”

    The stranger folded his arms and relaxed himself onto the tips of the picket fence, looking up at Jakes dad towering over him.

    “Hello to you to sir. I was just asking the kid if he knew where the closest store was”

    “Why would a child have directions to a store, seems silly, if you ask me”

    “Kids are smarter than you think, they pick up on all sorts of things. We were just talking, nothing wrong with talking is there?

    “Nothing wrong with talking, but I’d rather you weren’t talking to my son, telling him stories”

    “Oh sir, I told him no stories, and I told him no lies. You can lie to a kid, sure, but when they hear the truth, they’ll know it’s the real thing”

    “Well, my kid doesn’t need to hear your truths, so why don’t you go tell someone else and leave him alone”

    “Okay then, have a good day and tell Jake it was nice talking to him”

    “You have a good day too but just so you know. Next time you talk to my son, we won’t be just talking.”

    Jakes dad turned and walked back towards the house, collecting the blanket and toys along the way. He entered the house and furiously threw them onto the ground in the hallway. He turned to close the door, and the stranger was still there staring at him and leaning over the fence. The stranger lingered a little longer before slowly straightening up and walking away towards the main road.

    Jakes’ dad made his way into Jakes’ room where he found him in his bed crying softly. He sat on the edge of Jakes bed and held his head in his hands for a moment before taking a big sigh and focusing in on Jake

    “What were you thinking Jake, what were you thinking. You don’t know that man, WE don’t know that man, why would you talk to him. I have told you many times before, many many times, don’t talk to strangers. You don’t know what people want Jake, people are the worst, they are sneaky, dangerous, scary, liars. People smile in your face and then they hurt you, and you never see it coming Jake. You don’t need people son, you got me, you don’t need anybody else. I am here to protect you, but you have got to, got to promise not to talk to anyone that we don’t know. I am just trying to keep you safe, but I can’t do that if you don’t do everything, I tell you. Do you understand?”

    Jake looked up, tears streaming down his face and nodded while burying his head into his dad’s chest and squeezing him tightly. They sat there for a few minutes until Jake was not crying anymore.

    “I’m sorry dad, I love you”

    “I love you too son, I love you too”

    Jakes dad stayed to read Jake a bedtime story before turning out the lights and leaving him to rest up.

    The next day was Jakes birthday and when he woke up he smelled pancakes. He rushed out of bed and into the kitchen where his dad had already piled high four pancakes and was still making more.

    “Good morning birthday boy, would you like some pancakes?”

    “Yes, Yes, Yes, I love pancakes”

    Jake jumped up at the table and immediately started pouring maple syrup from a jug in the center of the table. His dad finished making another four pancakes and turned off the heat. He pulled out a chair at the table and sat down opposite Jake.

    “I am sorry I got angry yesterday, Jake, I was just scared of losing you. It’s your birthday today so I have decided to skip our class this morning. I was thinking you could play outside, close to the house, for a little bit. Then later we can walk to the store and pick out a new toy, and a nice cake, what do you think?”

     

    “I’m not going to get lost; I was just outside! Can we get ice cream too, please, please?”

    “Yeah okay, we can get ice cream too, it is your birthday”

    When Jake finished his pancakes, he immediately ran to his room to change into his clothes. When he came back out his dad was in the hall gathering up the dolls and the blanket from the corner, where they had ended up the day before. His dad undone the locks on the door and opened it wide, walking only a few steps out before putting the blanket down and placing the dolls on it. Jake came out of the house and began to rearrange and examine his dolls that had been treated so badly by his dad. His dad went back inside and returned with a deck chair, setting it up, just outside the front door. He sat down into it with his morning coffee, watching Jake as he played, and scanning the neighborhood.

    Around an hour passed when Jakes dad began to get restless, he decided Jake would be okay if he went into the garage to work on one of his projects.

    “Jake, I am going to go inside, remember what we spoke about yesterday. If anyone comes near the garden just come straight inside and close the door. Do you promise?”

    “I promise dad, no strangers.”

    Their house was on the end of the street, and it was surrounded by large trees and overgrown bushes. Shortly after Jakes dad went inside, the stranger emerged from the tree line, creeping low, in line with the picket fence. He watched Jake as he played and overheard him naming new characters and planning adventures, he smiled to himself, as he moved closer. In a sudden rush, the stranger ran up the side of the fence and jumped over it in one clean movement. He ran quickly up to Jake, grabbed his arm, and put a finger to his lip.

    “Jake, it’s me, remember me. I need you to be very quiet and listen to me, it’s going to be okay, I promise”

    Jake reeled back and pulled away, but the stranger tightened his grip, pulling Jake closer and looking back into the house in a panic.

    “Listen Jake, I came to help you, to take you on adventures, you need to come with me, it will be okay”

    “NO NO NO, you’re a stranger, let me go, let me go, my dad will be angry”

    “I’m not a stranger, I’m not, it’s very complicated Jake, you need to trust me, I’m here to help you”

    “I don’t trust strangers, I don’t trust anyone, only my dad!”

    “You can’t trust him, you can’t, he hasn’t been telling you the truth.

    “He has, he has, let me go, let me go, LET ME GO”

    “Jake, the truth is, I am your dad. I have been looking for you a very long time and I have come to rescue you. This man took you from me and your mom a long time ago, your name was Kyle then. We have looked everywhere for you, and finally I have found you, and we can go home, and I can keep you safe”

    “NO no, no, you’re not my dad, you’re a stranger, let me go, let me go. DAD! DAD! DAD!

    “We need to go, come on, we need to.

    Jake pulled and pulled but the stranger had run his hand under Jakes arms and lifted him up. He was dragging him down the garden and towards the tree line. Jake struggled in his arms and tried to break free.

    “Kyle… Jake… it’s going to be okay. Once we’re safe I will explain everything, and we can go on those adventures.

    They were near the fence when Jakes dad came running from the house holding a large steel pipe. The stranger looked at him and panicked, he was struggling with Jake and would not be able to defend himself. It was fight or flight and so he dropped Jake and immediately pulled a gun from his waistband and aimed it directly at Jakes dad. Jake ran straight for his dad, who had stopped right in his tracks, and was standing as still as possible.

    “Not another step, you bastard!” screamed the stranger

    “Please, my son, let him go, you don’t need to hurt him” Jakes dad said calmly

    “Your son! Your son! He is my son!”

    “You got the wrong kid, it’s okay, it’s okay, this doesn’t have to happen”

    The stranger looked directly at Jake.

    “Jake, this man is not your dad, I am your dad, you need to come with me, come on”

    Jake buried his head between his dad’s legs and squeezed onto him as tight as he could. His dad pat him on the head and looked down at him before returning his attention to the stranger.

    “You’re scaring my kid, can’t we all just relax and sort this out peacefully”

    “Stop calling him your kid! You stole him from us six years ago, and here you are raising him as if he is your own. Well, he is not yours, he is my son, and your little fantasy is over, he’s going to come with me.”

    “You got the wrong idea, he’s my son, and we’ve been living here since he was born, he can’t be yours, he’s mine”

    “Its taken me all this time to find you, but I did, the house, the secret garage, the closed curtains, it’s you, I know its you. They might have given up, but I never did, I never will. I’m here for my son, for Kyle or Jake, it doesn’t matter. I’m here because I love him and because I’m his dad.”

     

    Jakes dad took a deep breath and looked down at him for a few moments. When he looked back at the stranger, an empty and determined stare had come onto his face.

    “You may be his dad, maybe but I am the one he loves. I am NOT losing this kid, not in this lifetime, so I guess you’re going to have to shoot me.”

    Jake turned to face the stranger and threw his hands wide and high to protect his dad.

    “YOU CAN’T! Not my dad, I love him, I love him, please don’t hurt him!”

    The stranger just stared at jake as he put himself between them and pleaded, and pleaded with him

    “He is my dad, and I want to stay here with him. I want to do my classes with him, even the sums. I want to play with him and have him read me bedtime stories, and make me pancakes. We aren’t hurting anyone Mr. Stranger, why are you trying to hurt us, please leave us alone!”

    The stranger stood staring at his son, as he pleaded for the life of his kidnapper. All the truths he so desperately wanted him to see were lost in the innocence of childhood. The truth was what he had seen and nothing this stranger merely told him about. He had thought simply revealing the facts to this child would win him to his side, but it seemed to draw him closer to the villain. In his eyes he saw nothing but fear and desperation, not the love he had always wanted to see in the eyes of his own child. He would deliver him from the clutches of this maniac but even now, in the heat of this moment, he had wondered. Will this child ever love me as he as loved his captor, will he hold me so tight, and defend me so dearly. Perhaps he had been better off lost forever, so that the stranger may have never faced this reality. A world in which he removed the rose-colored glasses from his own child and revealed to him the dark twisted things that surrounded him on all sides. Where he must play the role of the stranger and the father.

  • Going All In

    DISCLAIMER; Written to explore a genre but does contain Sexual references. 

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    Jane took her coffee from the counter, searching for a seat. She sat in a quiet corner by the window, and started to set up her laptop. Her mind had been racing all morning, thinking about the night before. Matt had come home from a night out with his friends. He had been drinking, and was a lot more friendly than usual. She was feeling good, so she went along with, and they end up under the covers. Matt was always quite a considerate lover; soft and gentle. Last night, it was different, when it was all finished her heart was racing, her legs were weak and couldn’t breathe. Jane had been with a few different guys in her time, the usual amount, nothing excessive. The experiences varied but she had her fair share of intense highs. This was different and she sat searching for the reasons. The more she thought about it the hotter she felt, she could almost relive the intensity. The back of her neck was heating up and she could feel a tingle along her spine, like goosebumps. Jane suddenly re-focused and realized what was happening to her with every thought. She closed her legs and straightened herself up to put her attention back into the work she needed to do.

    After a few hours of working in the cafe, she decided to wander home for lunch. Matt would be out of bed by then, she hoped. He worked night shifts for a tech support company and would usually sleep late into the afternoon. He was a sweet soul and the first guy she had ever felt safe with. Some might say he was on the more reserved, introverted side but he was kind, soft and quite handsome. He would keep fit and was in great shape, but he never went on about it. Jane had been with some real characters before Matt. All kinds of goofy, serious, intense and good-looking guys, none of them made her feel like he did. The thing she loved was the balance, he could make her laugh, reflect, think or cry and he was serious about life and his ambitions. She had dealt with jealousy and cheaters before, but he was someone she just felt she could trust, never questioned him on anything he did, or anyone he went out to see. It helped that Matts hobbies were mostly gaming and playing board games, but she didn’t mind, it kept her at ease.

    When she got in the door, he was in the kitchen making breakfast. He looked well, considering how he was the night before. He was standing in his underwear, slice of toast sticking out of his mouth, trying to plunge his coffee. Jane stood looking at him and smiling on

    “Need a hand with that honey”

    She entered the kitchen and took the plunger in her hand forcing the coffee down through the water. Matt wrapped his free arm around her, pulling her close into his chest. She snuggled in for a moment and then broke free to put her bag in the sitting room. He followed her through, dropping down into the sofa and spreading himself wide. Jane was looking at him with a newfound scrutiny, she found herself asking what it was. What had changed between last night and today. There had to be something different about him and yet there he was, in his underwear, the same as every other day.

    She scanned every inch of him, looking for a spark, a feeling that had not existed before, but there was none. She felt something, a heat, a curiosity, a desire. The need to know, if they went again today would it feel as it did.

    She pushed the thoughts out of her mind and went to do some things around the house. There was a load of washing to be done and the bed was not going to make itself. Matt had come up to get showered and she listened as he sang in the shower, some TV theme song from the 80s. She never got any of his references, but she had always found it endearing that he tried to include her in his interests. Matt came from the bathroom wrapped in a towel and still dripping from his shower.

    “Hey… sorry if I was.. a bit much last night”

    She was slowly folding the fresh pillowcases, and laying them on the bed.

    “A bit much, hmmm, is that what you call it”

    “You know once the shots were flowing, I knew it might have gotten a bit far”

    She opened the drawer for him so he could get at his t-shirts.

    “Well, I think I can forgive you, seeing as you were so nice to me when you got home”

    Matt was putting his socks on and looking down at his shoes

    “Yeah, I think I remember that being quite nice too”

    Jane was still looking at him and trying to figure out what it was, this intense feeling that she needed to re-live, she could not get it out of her mind. Matt walked over to her and placed his hand around the back of her neck, grasping it, pulling her in. As they kissed, he pulled her tighter into it, squeezing gently, his finger running up behind her ear. The heat was rising in her again and she could feel a tightness in her lower back. His head tilted into the kiss as his other hand wrapped the outside of her waist, thrusting it towards his own. As sudden as he had kissed, he had pulled her back out of it all, leaving her with a gentle kiss on the very tip of lips.

    “I love you, I’ll call you on my break”

    He gathered his things from the bed and left the room. For a moment Jane just went back to folding clothes, but she had to sit down. There was a sensation in her legs, a tingle in her back, a heat up high in her chest. Her heart was beating with such intensity she could feel it at the base of her neck. What was it, that kiss, it was different than usual, it was more raw. Matt was always a light kisser, nothing too involved. As she thought on what it really was, she began to pick up on what she was reacting too. The grip, around her neck, the pull towards him, locked into this kiss, and when it was already close, he pulled her further in, and doubled his efforts. He kissed her with a fire and intensity of someone about to be sent to death, like it was his last kiss, and she was the lucky one. Even more, it didn’t feel like he wanted her, it felt like he needed her. If he had asked at that moment she’d have said yes, to anything, to everything, to that. Then like a final blow, ‘I love you’, and she feels the floodgates opening.

    Matt had never been quite so intense and she spent the evening thinking about why it had made such an impression on her. Jane had dated some pretty bad guys and tried a few things. One of her old flames was particularly into rope and paddle play, it was a phase. She knew what her kinks were, mostly from experimentation but last night wasn’t anything new. Generally her favorite was being on top, looking down on them, controlling the pace, controlling her own pleasure, and theirs too. She could slip gently into that position starting close to them before moving upright and freeing herself into it,  until she finished. Matt never had any problem with that, they switched up from time to time but mostly he would let her lead the dance.  She was always in the bedroom and very experienced. She never had any problem getting what she wanted.

    Jane was catching up on some reading and decided to relax and reset before bed. She lit some candles in the bathroom and began to run the bath. Waving her hand through the water as the temperature rose, until it was boiling. She slipped off her pyjamas dipping a leg into the water. The heat was all that she could feel, as she stepped in. Slowly she lowered herself into the water anticipating the point it reached her lower body. She took a deep breath and then send her shoulders back until she was submerged. Then bursting from the water she put her head back over the bath, spreading her knees wide and high and positioning her chest just above the water. Her hands ran through her hair until it hung over the side. Then she took some slow deep breathes, as her right hand ran over her chest, stopping at her breast where she gently teased at her nipple. Her other hand ran slowly up and down her left leg, one finger outstretched until she finally allowed it to rest down below. She sent her thoughts to the night before and replayed it in her mind while she tried to re-capture the pleasure.

    Matt had come in the door and she had been curled up on the sofa with her book. He was singing loudly and went straight to the kitchen to get a snack. She saw him stumbling a bit and he was a little well on. She called him from the sofa.

    “Don’t eat my snacks, get your own”

    He turned and threw his head out through the door.

    “You’re awake!”

    She got off the sofa and walked into the kitchen to see what he was doing

    “Did you have a good night, how are the guys doing”

    Matt was going through the fridge looking for something, but just kept taking things out and putting them back in. He slammed the door shut and turned back to Jane.

    “WOW, you are fucking gorgeous, fuck”

    Jane was stood in her black lace nightie, it had been warm in the house so she had wanted to feel a little lighter and free while she read her book.

    “I guess you did have a good night then”

    Matt pulled her arm and start to spin her, dancing in the kitchen, then he wrapped his other arm around her waist pulling her in close, kissing her. He ran his hands right down either side of her ass cheeks and squeezed them both. Then in one move he lifted her up onto the kitchen island, the cold stone shocked her but now his hands were on the outside of her thighs, setting into position. She was pulling in and out of the kiss trying to get his attention but each time he would squeeze tighter and lean into the kiss more. She pulled away for a moment.

    “Hey, hey, slow down a little there”

    Matt put one hand on the inside of her thigh and the other gripped around the back of her neck.

    “Shh, shh, let me, let me”

    While he was kissing her, he moved her thong out of the way. His hand was at the front of her neck now and he thrust her backwards onto the counter. Then he kissed her neck then playfully bit at her breasts before going straight down on her. It was sudden, his head was buried between her legs and she could feel the intention in every kiss, every lick, every nip he made. She felt like she was being ravaged in the kitchen, closing her eyes and letting it happen. From time to time he would pull at her legs or her hips as if to get deeper, to get closer, to eat her whole. Her chest rose and fell faster and faster, she put her hand on his head pushing him further, holding him there, just a bit longer, just a bit. When her chest fell for the last time and her legs tightened under the release he stopped. Suddenly Matt was pulling her from the counter and putting her over his shoulder.

    “Lets go, I’m not done”

    She laughing as they made their way into the bedroom. He threw her down on the bed and began to take his trousers off. She start to sit up and adjust herself.

    “I guess I’ll go on top and repay you for that”

    Matt pushed her back down into the bed, pulling up her nightie

    “No, let me, let me”

    He entered her and she gasped. Her hands immediately reached up and around his neck. Matt was pushing deep and slow and then he would pick up his pace from time to time. Jane felt like it was all happening to her, like she was just supposed to lay there and let it. She did, and occasionally she would grind her hips in the opposite direction. The feeling had started on the kitchen island but here it was now growing with every stroke. Matts hand was around her neck again, at the back, gripping and using it to force her body down into his. Her body was tightening, her legs shivering and the heat was growing in her chest, tingles racing up and down her spine. She wrapped her legs around his lower back, and he leaned in closer to her

    “I fucking love you, I fucking love you so much, so much, so much”

    She tried to reply but by now she was almost breathless, and her chest was rising and falling, her heart was racing, and she dug her hands into his back. The release was full body shivers and her legs swung from his back as they shook on the bed. He rolled off of her and they lay side by side. Her breaths were fast, and she could not catch them, there were no thoughts in her head and she felt like cloud, the finish had been so exhilarating she could not even begin to describe how she felt.

    Back in the bath Jane was feverishly stroking herself, repeating again and again

    “I fucking love you, I fucking love you, I fucking love you”

    She rose up out of the water and dropped back in with a massive exhale, as she finished. Placing her hands on the sides of the bath to re-centre herself she start to think about Matt again. Finally she knew what was different, the control and the need. He had come at her lusting for her body, in a way that no one had before, least of all him. With each squeeze, each grip, each thrust he was taking her, making her his and his only. She had been controlled before, tied up, even slapped around. This time matt had done it because of some primal urge to own her. Not because a man takes a woman, and the woman takes it. It was because Matt loved her, she knew he did, in that moment he wanted to consume all of her, to own her, he needed her. Jane had given herself to men before but when he whispered in her ear. When she knew he needed more than just the feel of her skin, the warmth of her body, he needed her entirely. She gave herself to him, and she never felt so good in her entire life.

  • A Bad Deal

    It was a cool crisp evening, as Henry turned onto lower Montgomery Street. He was heading for a new joint that had just opened on the corner. It used to be a diner and a shake shop, but on account of the government giving people back their booze, times had changed. Usually, he wouldn’t be down this end of town or ever cross the door of this kind of place, but Henry had a date, this is where you went, if you wanted to impress.

    He swung open the oak doors and removed his coat. He was early, he was nervous, and he was thirsty. Henry headed to the bar counter where he threw his faded old overcoat on the back of his chair. He never liked these places, for all the fancy design, the seats were never comfortable. He jumped up on the stool and immediately noticed that the leather cushion had no cushion at all. The back of the stool was low and pushed into his back, so he slouched forward. The bar counter had a rail around the edge, that dug into his elbows, so he had to arch himself like a bridge from ass to elbow. He looked out a place, and he was still thirsty.

    The bartender glided down and greeted him, placing down a bar mat and a few dry nuts in a bowl. Henry hated this part; he just wanted a beer. The guy was going to tell him about the specials and crack some jokes, make some small talk, what was the point. He knew he was going to get his tip either way, that’s the way it was, the etiquette, part a’ the whole damn thing. So, he listened to him.

     “We gotta great new gin in, mister, makes a mean Martini, unless you’re, a bit more old fashioned, eh?, eh?, then I got this scotch that’s going to smoke ya out the water!”.

    Henry mustered a smile and got ready to shoot down all this enthusiasm, but the bartender continued.

    “You know what, I got you pegged all wrong mister, it’s a Champagne cocktail your after, it’s a Friday night and you worked hard enough to deserve it, I’m sure a that”.

    There was not a universe that existed where Henry Thompson was drinking Champagne, any night of the week, he knew that himself. The bartender was about to continue, so interrupted him and told him he was just getting a beer, if he didn’t mind. Henry minded, he was still thirsty, and still nervous.

    The bartender acted as if he were a puppet who just had the hand pulled out of him, he slinked off down the bar, arriving back with a beer and half a smile.

    “Enjoy.”

    Henry was sure he didn’t mean it but didn’t pay much attention to it at all. His mind drifted off to his night ahead and the morning he had tomorrow, wondering if he’d over committed. Tonight, he had a date, first one in, let’s say a long time. Diane worked down at the desk near the accounts office. She was a kind woman and often Henry would greet her as he went back and forth with his paperwork. They might talk about their week or the weather or something mundane, he wasn’t much of a talker. Last week, in what he can only remember as a haze, he got the courage to ask her out to a drink sometime. She had said she oughta think about it, datin’ men from the office wasn’t something she thought was a good idea. After lunch that day she decided they could go for a drink, see where it goes, but none of those dirty bars, the salesman often went to. Somewhere nice, that new place, up on Montgomery Street. So, there he was sitting at the bar, waiting on a woman, not his usual Friday night.

    Henry moved to the city a few years back but still hadn’t found his feet. He worked for a boring insurance broker, he didn’t quite understand most of what he sold to his clients. That was part of the problem, he was not making any sales at all, at least not new ones. Last year, an old timer retired, and they split up his accounts in a raffle. Henry scored big on a chain of factories that were making motors and needed good insurance. In the last 3 months, he’d lost many of his own clients to competitors and this motor factory was really his last leg. Tomorrow morning, he had been invited to a few rounds of Golf with the owner and his lawyer. They were wantin’ to shave a few dollars off their deal, and Henry was supposed to be the man to get it done. Except, he had no clue how to do a deal, he never had to. He had been in sales for around three years, but all his other clients had come directly to him, and the motor factory was about the only lucky thing he thought had happened to him. This might just be his last and only chance. So, he sat there wondering if he might need to get a new job next week.

    Every time the door swung, his eyes darted towards it, expecting her to walk in. He was early still and sat silently over his beer, occasionally swirling it and taking a few small sips. Suddenly a smack came across his back, enough to break the bridge and send him sitting up straight.

    “Thompson, I thought that were you up at the bar, how you doing old fellow, got lost on the way uptown it seems.”

    It was one of the other Salesman, Howard, he was accompanied by a group, standing slightly back from them, staring and giggling. Henry re-adjusted and forced a smile upon his face, stumbling over his words and trying to muster up something witty. His words fell flat, and he ended up with,

    “Gotta a date.”

    He wasn’t much for improvising or even conversing, so he just looked at Howard, willing him to take the conversation over.

     “Well Thompson, we hear you got a big game tomorrow, playing for your job it seems. Can’t go losing anymore accounts or you’re going up to the fourth floor, to explain yourself.”

    Henry nodded along in agreement, adding a shrug and a half a wrinkled smile. He knew well that this was his last chance to turn things round, he didn’t need Howard to tell him that much. The crew behind, headed towards the door, so Howard made his goodbyes,

    “Listen old fellow, don’t let em’ knock anymore than 2% off the top and promise them your soul if you have to, it’s going to be alright. If you mess it up, old Howard will sweet talk them back to the table. Gotta run, we got Champagne and cigars calling.”

    Henry half stood up and shook his hand weakly then slouched back over his beer.

    Diane arrived in the door around five minutes after they had agreed to meet up, Henry thought this was reasonable, he had been very early. She was wearing a long coat, and she stood in the doorway slowly undoing the belt that kept it wrapped around her. As she slipped it from her shoulders, she scanned the room and locked eyes with Henry, he was awkwardly half standing, half sitting, trying to get her attention. She returned a warm gentle smile to the flat expressionless face he had on. Then she beckoned him towards an empty booth in the window. Henry watched as she slowly walked across the room, pencil skirt, white blouse, straight dark silky hair, and confidence, more than he’d ever seen. It was as if she knew the whole room was watching, and most of them were, and so was Henry, and he was nervous.

    He made his way over from the bar with his beer, and his old coat. Awkwardly smiling, he slid into the booth opposite Diane. She had already gotten, it seemed, quite comfortable. He, however, could not get comfortable at all, he wanted to look confident but that meant he couldn’t relax. He continued to adjust and shift himself in the booth until he gave up and just slouched forward towards her. She sat back, legs crossed, one knee showing just above the table, shoulders back, and commanding all his attention. She reached for a pack of cigarettes, thin, slim ones, then slowly lit one, pressing it to her red lips. She kept eye contact with Henry as  the smoke slowly escaped from the side of her lips, which she had pursed together.

    “Hope you don’t mind, we all got our vices, want one yourself”

    Henry shook his head and picked up his beer, as if to answer. The problem was, he didn’t answer, just gestured towards his drink. Diane continued

    “So Henry Thompson, small town boy come to the big old city, tell me something I don’t know about you, tell me a secret.”

    Henry shifted in his seat again, he could feel the beats of his heart in his neck, they were hard to ignore but he took a moment to think.

    “Well er, when I was a boy back home, one time I was down the store and I only had enough for a few candys, so when the man weren’t looking I put a chocolate bar in my pocket, and I ran as fast as I could back home and I, er, hid in my room. No one ever caught me, but I always thought they might, still might.”

    Diane looked at him for a moment curiously,

    “Quite a life you’ve lived then, career criminal turned Salesman, I’m not sure which job is worse,”

    She waited for him to come back with a reply. Henry sat looking at this woman, completely out his depth. He felt as if he were a helpless chicken locked in a cage with a lioness, and she was about to devour him. He still hadn’t answered so he looked up from his beer and said “I’m not so sure myself”

    The evening continued much the same. Henry felt like he was barely treading water. Diane was oozing charisma, charm, and sarcasm in equal measure. She had gone on to tell him about growing up outside the city and getting her job at the firm, her first apartment, and her best friend back home. They were going to go travelling in a week, and Diane was excited to see her. Henry still hadn’t managed much more than three sentences the whole night, he just drank her in, intoxicated. Diane began to seem bored and in between the silences he caught her glancing up at the art deco clock. He had hoped she was just admiring it, but he knew really, she was biding her time. Diane was sipping on the last of her drink when she sat forward gently, looking at Henry with a smile that almost felt pitiful.

    “You know Henry, I’ve had a swell time tonight, you’re a great friend. Maybe next time we might just grab a coffee instead, what do ya think.”

    Henry didn’t want to rule out ever seeing Diane outside of work, so he tried to look content, and nodded back to her. Diane was gathering her things and getting ready to leave,

    “I know you got that big game in the morning; you’ll need a good night’s rest. Don’t worry about me, a couple of the girls are up at Howards, and I am going to stop by and say hello. A girl wouldn’t pass up free Champagne!”

    She leaned forward and lay a kiss on Henrys forehead, then standing tall beneath the lights wrapped her coat gently around herself and floated gracefully from the bar.

    Henry sat over the last of his drink and began to wonder. He had been in the city for three years and in all that time he had never been happy. In fact, he left home to move to the city because he was never happy. Some people are just miserable and that’s it, he thought. There was more to life surely than a job, a wife, kids, and a home. Still, that’s all he thought he really ever wanted; all you’re supposed to have. He wouldn’t mind some friends too, he was sure he’d be happier then. Henry knew tomorrow was his last chance, to do something, anything, make his mark. Diane was off to Howards, surely to tell all the girls about the lackluster evening she spent with Henry Thompson. He was sure Howard would make some witty remarks and cozy on up to Diane, as he had so many times before, with so many other girls. Then when Monday rolled around Howard would drive down to the motor factory and close the deal, like he had also done, so many times before. Henry, well he would be where he always was, trying to catch up, trying to succeed, trying, trying, trying. All he had to do was make this deal tomorrow and everything would be back on track. Diane would have that coffee with him then, and he could tell her all about his deal. She was sure to be impressed and even consider going for more than just a coffee. Yeah, that’s what he would do, turn it all around, get the girl, and the bonus.

    He wasn’t sure any of this was going to make him any happier than he ever was, but Henry always kept going. Many times, before, things had gotten pretty bad, he had kept going, and kept going. One thing was always for sure, no matter how bad things got, he always knew how to make it worse